Lesbian Porn Addiction

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The explosion of lesbian porn is probably a combination of things; some girls with boyfriends do it to make money and their boyfriends don't object as they would with their being base prostitutes. Health issues are less severe as with the more odious sex in porn. However the girls are forever stigmatized as porn actresses.

 

I agree 100% as that is exactly what has happened to me. I think in many ways it messes up your brain in a different way because it takes away the penetration aspect in our brains and almost makes some men want to have sex as if we were lesbians. It sounds weird, I know, but I’ve experienced it.

No offense, but I honestly think that people who say all porn has the exact same effect, simply don’t know what they’re talking about.

 

Pornography is empty and embarrassing.

I know actual, committed lesbian women, and the images in porno are not "lesbian"; real lesbians are offended by the abuse of the sacred word. Seriously, it's degrading.

Please, my friend, do not surrender your body and spirit to strange women. Their lips drip honey, but in reality, those women are bitter as gall, and a snare.

Circumcise, therefore, your spirit, and do not attach to such frivolous and worthless imagery.

 

What got me hooked on lesbian porn wasn't desensitization to straight porn. Unlike many people at NoFap I never ever became desensitized to straight porn and never lost my real attraction to women (both romantic and sexual) even during the peak of my HOCD. Women are divinely hot and beautiful and that's the end of it (not just porn-wise but everything-wise lol). It's just that lesbian porn, though "weird and not my bag" sort of thing at first, eventually hit a spot and gave me a high which straight porn can never match (I still remember that honest, unadulterated sound I heard from my brain when I first saw two women have sex in porn. "What are they so excited about anyway?" said my freshie brain, and "nah they're faking it I bet one of them thinks the other one's a guy or something". There was a natural barrier which I didn't really care to cross. But if you think these "natural barriers" cannot be overtaken or overridden by addictions and escalations, think again, because I spent the next 4 years watching nothing but lesbian porn when I fapped (and convinced myself it was "cleaner" than straight porn all throughout because you didn't have to see guys and their parts which were a put off).

To my brain, lesbian porn was both feminine (it was girls, after all) and deviant (because it was homosexual, basically two girls indulging in prohibited and unconventional sexual acts with each other and that felt deviant to a straight guy), and it almost felt like the deviant part wasn't on me because it was female and not male homosexuality. This combination produced fire works in a brain desperate for stimulation, and the lack of any sexually prohibitive mechanism (i.e. the homosexuality is on the ladies not me) only made me escalate further on.

Deep down inside the brain's reward center, however, none of my excuses mattered. "Deviancy" and "homosexuality" in general were starting to register as especially rewarding, a lot more than "normal sex", and I couldn't read an article on homosexuality or watch some news about LGBT without thinking "porn!". But it wasn't going to stop at lesbian porn. I mean I'm not gonna kid myself because the most compelling part in lesbian sex was the fact that it was "unusual". I distinctly remember how every time I watched lesbian porn my arousal would be tripled whenever I heard those voices in my head saying "oh my God what are they doing I can't believe it!" or "wait, they're actually doing it and they're so into it this actually works!". It felt especially shameful (and really arousing) when the women would start cumming on each other (pardon the triggers) because in my mind it meant their deviant sexual act now had an undeniable seal on it from which they can never walk away (they can't deny they liked it). Over time, I'd start looking for more extreme lesbian scenes that provoked the same bewilderment in my brain, like old-on-young, because as I said it was sexually rewarding, and the women in the scene didn't even have to look that good as long as they were doing horribly homosexual stuff to each other. I'd successfully eroticized homosexuality and "deviancy" and the anxiety and shock that come along with them.

Eventually even hardcore lesbians had become "normal" so I started clicking some seriously horrible stuff like transwoman and double penetration (in the same hole) and it was at that point that I knew this had gone too far (two d*cks in the same hole! Come on!). I turned off my PC that night and tried to forget about the whole thing.

Well, I may have forgotten, but something inside my brain was actually in the making. "What the hell!!!" I thought when I first got a groinal response looking at a well built guy the next morning. Where did that reaction come from, I asked myself? I ignored it, but it started becoming more serious every time I "tested" myself, and a full-blown (and first) episode of life-changing HOCD would ensue that day after I tested myself with porn and realized I had just developed this new compulsive sensitivity to gay porn.

I don't know if this sort of thing happens to everyone who escalates and then becomes hooked on the escalation (novelty) itself, or if it's just my brain being more plastic. Or maybe it's because I felt that this development was a serious assault on my sexuality and gender identity that my brain decided to make it top priority and stay on alert mode 24/7 (hence the OCD aspect of the issue). For someone with let's say real but insignificant bisexuality, or someone who is 100% straight but absolutely open-minded when it comes to sex, this development would hardly register as an assault, hence no OCD red alarm despite the escalation.

One thing for sure, though. This sort of thing never ever happened to me before porn, and even if it did, it was too insignificant for me to so much as remember as it had nothing, absolutely nothing, to draw on. I mean I've had OCD before, and it was actually about previous sexual encounters, but the OCD wasn't sexually arousing, it was OCD pure and simple.

 

As LGBT becomes more mainstream and women are shown kissing or discussing relationships with women; my mind turns to porn as well.

As a man, my only ability to find out and get mesmerized by what these women are doing with each other is by watching porn.

Just sit back and watch the deviancy; where we as men are not invited, but yet we are there.

 

I used to watch lesbian porn exclusively. It escalated to femdom. I think in both cases it came from my love for the female body.

Understand that is where it comes from. Accept that this won't be easy. But take things 1 day at a time. That's all you really can do. Everyday just tell yourself "Today I will not watch porn". See if that works for you.

 

Just want to highlight there's a difference between analyzing the preference and kicking the habit. If you get some reboot time in a streak away from it you may just have more mental clarity and objectivity in analyzing the psychology behind it, but if there's a lot of brainfog you probably won't see anything clearly whether it's lesbian porn, another type of porn or anything else in life.

 

For me there was no "escalation" into more sociopathic forms; the oral sex and female beauty was always the attraction. Disgust is in the fully shaved pubes and the scenes where it is just not natural. Many men are no good at affectionate, sensual and loving sex which women want and are good at in some cases. Realistically I don't think I have met more than a handful of women in my whole life who would enjoy lesbian sex.

 

This is a long shot, but if there's anyone with enough psychology knowledge to analyze it in terms of anima/animus and Carl Jungs concepts I'd be interested in hearing about that, as I suspect that might have something to do with it.

 

People are going to have different experiences based on their reactions.

Frankly my attraction to the female is the search for female beauty, the beauty of the woman's reproductive system activated by sensual sex. Healthy, athletic, beautiful women are a real turn on for me. If I had the real thing I would not have any interest in a film.

To characterize the lesbian gay for pay phenomenon as "homosexuality" is false though historically lesbian sex was regarded as deviant, indicative of mental illness, unhealthy and morally wrong. That Neanderthal characterization is becoming obsolete. However lesbian porn is just an offshoot of prostitution except in the rare instance of exhibitionism. In many cases the relatively low pay in porn is advertising for "escort" services that can run $5K and up.

I have always found homosexuality to be truly deviant, unhealthy and utterly grotesque. Anal sex especially is weird and unhealthy. I don't find fellatio attractive either. Loving coital hetero sex should be the norm. Oral sex on the woman is pretty to me in some cases. Kissing and pleasuring the woman in general is natural and normal. The fact that many guys are not good at that is one of the reasons people find attractive sensual girl on girl oral sex desirable. Women often have few limits on how long they can have sex unlike men.