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Greetings to all!

I am Vanquisher12, so named because I have joined this great community in my fight to vanquish porn and masturbation once and for all.

I was first ensnared by temptation to masturbate when I was 12, purely out of the curiosity to see what would happen, and it felt so good that I resolved to do it again, and again, and again, so that for the next four years I wanked twice a day pretty much non-stop. At that time I thought nothing of it, but during my college years I started to wonder if this was a good idea, and tried to stop it, first reducing it to once a day, then once every couple of days, but couldn’t do much better than that.

Then University came around, and with it I endured a great deal of stress and anxiety as I studied a particularly hard course, and it was during my first year that I made my next damning mistake - that of deciding to watch porn. At first it proved quite alluring, as it preyed on my concern of not having a girlfriend and gave me a taster of what intimacy was like, though I started to feel ashamed at my behaviour of sneaking into university toilet cubicles and hiding there to watch porn and wank in perfect privacy, and of course the more ashamed I felt, the more pornography preyed on my guilt and prompted me to watch more to escape from it, and so the vicious circle began. I was lucky that I still managed to graduate from my course with a 2:1, but the addiction remained for the next couple of years. Things culminated last summer during the first of the UK’s lockdowns, when, caught between a porn and masturbation addiction and being convinced that somehow, as an introvert, I might be cursed never to get a girlfriend, I started to experience a bout of depression, and though I later developed the strength to emerge from it with a more positive mindset, porn and masturbation have continued to blight my life such that now I have developed PIED and sometimes have worryingly homosexual thoughts, even though throughout my life I have had eyes only for girls.

Yet I am not giving up. Recently I made the decision to embark upon the 90-day challenge, and as well as writing the days 1-90 in a hidden notepad for me to tick off every day I have gone without even edging, I plan to sever all remaining ties to PMO after those 90 days. Though while I have tried so long to fight this curse alone, it hasn’t worked, so I have turned to you - a community of like-minded people who wish for nothing more than to rid themselves of these vile habits and return to a happy, love-and-sex-filled life, as allies to support me in my battle against this affliction, and for me to support in their own fights against this darkest disease of humanity.

I look forward to getting to know you all as brothers (and sisters)-in-arms in this darkest time!