Feeling suicidal

Sorry to hear that.
Have you tried therapy?

 

Just give it up. Simple decision. You will feel the real difference in your attitude just after a week.

 

Maybe you could try therapy. It didn't resolve all my issues but helped to some extent. Took months.

How old are you?

 

22 is very young. You have your whole life ahead of you.
Is there some other reason you're suicidal apart from pmo? Like bad in studies, work stuff..

 

Where do you stay?
How much have you studied? Do you want to go to college again or take up some work?

College, work won't fix your issues, but you'll be better with them in your life.
I was 23 when I had a breakdown

 

trust me, you can get rid of this addiction, killing yourself isn't worth it

 

Good idea, it'll make you feel better and kill the urges too.

 

Good luck my dude, please keep us updated. Everything will get better. I’ve been clean for 4 months and I promise you there is a light.

 

Keeping busy with study is great, but it's often not enough. You may find yourself lacking in one of the 3 main areas of happiness.

Health
Freedom (including money)
Relationships (friends, fam, partners)

Health should be your first priority, if that's mostly good, you can work on the others.

Finding a job is probably one of the best things you can do right now.

A daily workout at home can also do wonders for your mental health. Something simple like a bullworker is a lot cheaper than a gym membership, and I personally found it a lot easier to work out at home without all the gym junkies and mirrors anyways...

It's pretty common for guys to have a life crisis moment early on, usually in 20s or 30s. We think "what am I actually doing with my life" or similar. Don't feel alone, we all question our choices at some point.

The great news, is at your age you have plenty of time and energy to make the changes you feel are necessary.

If there's one thing I can impart to you, just know life can change A LOT in just a matter of months. Years do go quickly, and in just a few years you can be a whole new man. Think of this as a period of painful growth. Good luck!