Back when I was in 9th grade I already told you guys about the gay porn and hocd but I didn't tell you guys about how I got iocd it all started back when I was a little kid I saw a porno on HBO back when I was like 4 or 5 and then later that year I went over my cousins house and I guess we were playing house and I ended up kissing my cousin and I was doing the things in the porno not sex but we kinda ended up making out i then ran up stairs and my cousin she said cousin's are supposed to kiss like that she was 7 so I don't blame her flashforward to 9th grade basically a couple of kids in my class kept messing with me and kept asking me who was my first kiss and one of them was like not your cousin and that weekend I kept having thoughts about my cousin and when I would masterbate to porn the thoughts of my cousin kept coming up and that kept happening for about 2-3 weeks and it led to me masterbating to my cousin once in didn't like it and I felt bad about it and things got weird being around my family because I felt bad and guilty about what I did but I forgive myself now because I never have been attracted to my cousin and it's not my fault for doing that but the good thing is that I'm on day 3 of not masterbating but do I regret what I did of course
Don't judge yourself man. I'm going to keep saying that until people begin to understand it. We all have strange things about us, and we've all done weird shit before, whether it means we've actually done it physically or even thought it or fantasised it. Honestly, makes no difference. I agree, porn does fuck up minds, that is why we need to stay away from it, for good. Just focus on rewiring bro. Once you rewire and cut porn out from your life, you'll be able to see the error of what happened with yourself and your cousin, but without judgement. Yes it was wrong, but whatever, just rewire and you'll be good. It doesn't matter what you've done in your past bro, what matters is what you decide to do today. Cut porn out and you'll be fine.
Totally agree with the above. Put all your energy into rebooting and not at external things where you might want to get angry. Decide I am going to turn this around and not look back. You will be an inspiration to many in the future and become so strong. Keep connected to the website we are here.
Thanks guys I honestly do believe that porn is the cause of all my problems I forgive my self for kissing my cousin because I was young and didn't know what I was doing and I also forgive myself for masterbating to my cousin because it wasn't my fault I was dealing with hocd and iocd and it makes you do stupid shit but if I would've never seen porn I would've never gotten ocd but I still feel bad about me masterbating to my cousin
