Sexual tastes/urges and habits vs. identity and sexuality

I agree with that. Sorry to hear that young you experienced trauma.

 

Oh there is a thing in the UK (wait-your user name suggests you are a Brit) called the Tavistock Clinic, where apparently even (occasional) 10 year olds have began gender-reassignment. Not often, but sometimes. Seems like ripe territory for a legal action a few years down the line.
But your posts are long and detailed. Is your profile for this issue (plus gayness) or is it for building yourself?
You write well, so I will risk saying that.

 

No the USA, but read the book

Yeah this is absolutely barbaric, but you're a 'hater' or 'phobe' if you disagree.

Yes many many many regret and become deeply depressed 5+ years after doing it - of course there is no turning back.
BTW, big tech social media often blocks men who had sexual reassignment surgery and regret it.

I became very confused (HOCD + molestation+ childhood neglect(depressed mother, absent father) + low self esteem from growing up) as my PMO and other poor coping strategies (drinking) increased which actually isolated me more...I

It's been a long road I quit alcohol entirely (i never drank more than weekends but it was more what it was BLOCKING and the . behavior it was triggering)- reduced anxiety, read spiritual and philosophical things like the stoics, did self esteem work, reading a lot of books on trauma and sexual addiction (The Body Keeps The Score and Unwanted I HIGHLY recommend) and a lot of the issues have faded.

I was so bad at one point, yes I questioned my sexuality (many cases like this @ your brain on porn) - but i started to understand the nature of sexual 'fantasy' (this is different from simply desiring someone) especially when it is the sexualization of other needs- as I work/worked on those needs fantasies off all kind (gay, fem dom, sissy) have faded - there was a clear escalation path with it and a de-escalation as well. But according to some I am just 'repressing' myself. I guess I should start drinking again!

 

Heart on sleeve. Bravo! Not easy. Please don't start drinking again (unless in moderation). Seems to me that you're on the up, and reacting to your past.
Just let gays be gays-not your problem (or theirs). Maybe there is some major root problem or not, but I say work on yourself, which I reckon you are doing.
I'd like to maximise myself and maybe even be someone that some look up to, including myself.

 

Totally agree, the info i post here is for guys who got in my situation - or similar - a lot have confused sexuality by pmo and other stuff- the problem is in 'mainstream' therapy/psychology there is the model of the 'repressed' sexuality - which YourBrainonPorn and other sites and personal testimonials here refute.

Mainstream psychology is way behind what we're discovering and doing here - its like they are the health experts in the 90s saying fat is the problem and a low fat diet is the solution.

Another problem here is activists often get threads and info like this deleted.

 

Good point

@RiverBlue I appreciate you taking the time to reply to this thread (sincerely), offering sympathy for my situation, and I realize my tone was a little too 'confrontational' or defensive.

We are all trying to help each other with each other's problems -and not everyone's 'healing' is the same but we can all learn from one another and help one another.