19 years old newbie

Day 9:-
Hello...
Today I woke up at 7:00 AM, was doing work on my pc and then the college started from 8:00 AM to 4:00 PM... It was a hectic time again, the teachers took extra sessions and I was feeling like sleeping and tired...
Then, after the college, I watched TV for some time, then slept for an hr and then again watched TV, did just a little bit of academic work and then again spent the whole day watching TV and YouTube...
But in between this I was seeing my dad modifying a document in word and learnt a lot in it; also I made a video call with my sister and brother and talked with them after a long time.
I have some tasks/ work pending throughout the day but I am not able to do it. I am not getting exactly what is happening but, I think I would have to modify my timetable and try to write it in a different way. What I mean is - see, I did not go outside my house throughout the day and not exercised as well. So, I think these are some fundamental things to make my mood fresh and healthy to do day-to-day work at time.
I think since I am leaving my addiction behind, i should do some acts like going outside and exercise daily and on-time, which will provide me with all the feel-good hormones and decrease stress. Doing these activities on-time will ensure that I am filled with all feel-good hormones and mental stability and now working hard won't result into a relapse... I hope you are getting what I want to convey ...
---- Your Friend: Sam_100

 

Hello guys, today I woke up at 7 O'clock as usual... Then did the college from 8-2...
Then I started to watch a webseries Family man s2...
Around 6 pm, I went to terrace, talked to friends on phone, then I started studying autocad software to use... Then did dinner and from 9:00 to 2:00 at night, I watched and finished the web series...
Right now it's 2:15 am and i am writing this journal ...
So nowadays I rarely get any urge and I chanellise my sexual energy in social places... Like I talk to people and express my emotions without thinking much about it...
Trust me, finding ways and channelling your energy in other activities really dissapears your need on pmo...
Also don't forget to find out and fix that root cause which got you in this addiction. We'll meet tomorrow on day 10 i guess and till then take care & stay strong

 

Hi... Sadly I did a relapse today... I'm regretting so much to this moment in my life...
I think it was because I could not structure my day properly, and poor discipline
Actually the days 10,11,12 usually bring your first flatline where you don't get attracted to any woman and things also don't give you much joy ... So i guess it is in this time where I got slipped, I played more games, watched tv and eat more fastfood in order to compensate for this flatline effect , which was my greatest mistake I believe...
Anyway, getting back on the house right now... Wish me good luck guys from this time, I want to get out of this...

 

Hi friends, today finished day 2 and now I'm feeling a little better...
This time I did not get any chaser effect , whose credit goes to you all guys... Thank you so much for motivating me...
So today I did the college, then watch some cartoon on youtube , then played cricket and talked with my brother.
So that basically summarises my day.
Sorry I did not write on yesterday as i was not feeling well but now i'm fine... So from now i'll be journelling on a regular basis.Thank you soo much to you all!

 

Thank You So much Brother ... I'm on the horse again

 

Day 3:-
Hii …. So today was a day as usual, I did not experience any kinda urge.
I woke up at 6:30, fresh and ready for the day but did not go outdoor... from 8 am to 3 pm I did the college. I further in the day did nothing but time-pass (like watching tv). Once I was thinking that I should do competitive programming, so tried to solve a problem on Hacker rank, but couldn't...
The thing is that, nowadays I am not doing my college work regularly and studying some other things on YouTube or other platform as my choice. Some times I like to study about logic gates, ALU design, computer memory, etc. Today I felt like to practice competitive programming; so I think I am not ending up in doing anything properly. Basically, in trying to achieve everything, I am ending up achieving nothing I guess. In addition to this I am not even going outside on a regular basis …
Hmmm...
So that's the status of my day, see you tomorrow on day 4, bye

 

Hii, from my last streak I have gathered some data that I want to share with you guys here ... this is not accurate and just an approximation ok...
So this is the data that I gathered from my last streak which is approximately 70% correct I guess.

And trust me guys I am struggling so much for this streak, I know it is because of my bad and lazy habits, but right now I am feeling a little frustrated and nervous as well.
I just wanted to say out this somewhere, so now I'm feeling small relief. So bye, see you tomorrow … bye and take care ...

 

Hii everyone, meeting after a long time!
First of all I want to say sorry to everyone that I was not posting any update for so long. Actually, to be honest, after my last reply I went through several relapses, even sometimes 1-4 times a day... then from 28 of June till today i.e. 12 days I did another nofap streak using a video series on YouTube that Ill be providing link below... And today I relapsed again. But now from tomorrow, I am starting this again...
But this time, the idea is that - first we are gonna complete this 30 day nofap fast so to speak, which will reset our body, dopamine sensitivity levels and everything else back near to normal. In this we'll make use of the video series that I've given link below so that we will get some guidance on each day. And then, once we complete this streak then I'm going to just masterbate on 2-4 days a month without porn, because porn is the real devil and not masterbation.
If you see really, masterbation is the natural need that everyone used to do right from our ancestors to us, it is just the porn that is causing harm to us. Porn wastes a lot of our time + it's exessive use causes us to think about it even at work places and thus reduces productivity. Also, the more porn we watch, the more of it we crave!
Now, I know the power of Siemen retention and all... but for that our lifestyle must be so that we meet 6 core human needs i.e. physical, emotional, social, intellectual, spiritual and sexual (sexual doesn't only mean sex, it is any kind of interaction with opposite gender like talking with a friend, meeting new people, dating, etc. ) and to make sure these needs fulfil, we must change our habits which is a slow and consistent process. So, the ultimate goal is to meet all the 6 core human needs and to reach a level where we get all the harmones released in a healthy way by meeting these 6 needs but to reach there we must start from a 30 day pmo fast...
This all is just my view on this topic, through my own experiences, failures and understanding. It is totally fine if someone doesn't agree with some or the other thing in it and I'm also not very sure, but by any chance if you agree with me then come and Let's start this again together... Please reply if you are starting with me or anytime along the journey so that we can make this a platform to talk with each other in our journey freely and do not feel alone... We are together in this And Together We Stand Strong
The link to the 30 days nofap free playlist is: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLf98WBxAAIECc1yGhp9iWro85nvfDYy_k
All the best !

 

Si hermano, muchas gracias por tu consejo ... tus palabras me inspiran
por cierto, solo sé inglés.
Escribí esto por el traductor de google✌
Love from India bro

 

Hii Guys, I just started with day 1 again... watched that video of day 1... now I was gonna relapse again, but felt not to so, actually I just realized that in 10 times I relapse, there is only2-3 times when I want to watch porn and other times it is just that I am a little stressed, in shame or in a slightly bad mood. All it takes to you to be just a little bit horny and in slightly bad mood to edge, relapse and chase it 3-4 times after relapse. So that's it for today, and I'll meet tomorrow ...

 

Heyy ... I know nobody's reading but I'm doing this to not to feel lonely. So it has been almost 2 years since my last post. Covid-19 came into control and colleges opened up! from Feb 23 I continued my Second year in college from offline mode and I'm currently in the Third Year now! I have been living into another city since 1 year and gained a lot of new experiences, which really did change my perspective towards life and completely changed my life!
Just 1 year before I was a boy who would stay whole day in the room and now a whole year I have been living in hostel with friends !
Now I am going to restart my journey and this time I'm also incorporating some new habits into my life because ... I don't really want to get rid of porn addiction or masterbation .... no, that's just part of the goal but ... what I want to achieve is full control of my day and build healthy habits like exercise, bathing everyday, eating right, talking to people and gaining communication skills, etc. Now I want to gain a sense of control over my life and no other thing should control my life... yeah that's the goal! Let's go, it's day 2 -->