Addictions are actually more enjoyable the less you do them.

Another big problem when it comes to trying to get over an addiction, it is actually much more enjoyable the less you do it.

I have found this with PMO and alcohol. Don't PMO for weeks, a month etc then PMO, boom it's a complete and utter explosion of pleasure and enjoyment. Don't drink alcohol for a few weeks, month and then drink it is much more enjoyable.

But drink regularly and it is no where near as enjoyable, PMO regularly and it is no where near as enjoyable.

It clearly comes down to sensitization and desensitization.

We want to be more sensitized, sensitization is healing. But sensitization can actually cause us big problems. Because like I said if you end up on PMO again when you're much more sensitized it will be like an explosion of pleasure and enjoyment.

It's crazy. The thing we want to happen, becoming more sensitized, this can actually also cause us to return to our addiction. Because the pleasure and enjoyment massively goes up the more sensitized we are.

 

Yeah I think the pleasure from it doesn't last long until you quickly feel the pain and misery from it again.

 

I would never say it's worth it really. The enjoyment and pleasure is very short lived.

But if I have one slip, or even PMOing a handful of times in a day, even sometimes a binge in one day, these days I can't really say I notice much negative effects from doing this once in a while. But there has been times the edging and binging has been heavier, and I have noticed some of those negative mental effects returning. So worsening of depression, agitation, tiredness, headaches, brain fog etc. I don't usually get these symptoms much or that severely these days. But a few weeks ago I did heavily edge and binge for a day and I did experience a lot of these symptoms for a few days afterwards. So this wasn't pleasant.

But again these days if I end up on it once in a while, and it is not that heavy, I can't really say I notice much negative effects from it.

But I wouldn't say I am someone who has the best mental health as it is anyway. I believe I have these issues even without PMO though. But who knows, maybe if I managed to cut PMO out my life completely for long enough I would maybe see an even bigger improvement in my mental health.