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I had similar experience with staying in touch on whatsapp after she quit cams (and proceeded as porn actress lol).
To be honest this "stay in touch as people" made me feel lonely and disconnected from real life. It's the same waste of time and energy as being on camsites.
I deleted the contact as I deleted everything else related to this past.

So what is your purpose? What holds you from just leaving it behind?

 

I got sucked into camming. I didn’t do it for money which I’m not sure is better or worse. It’s true the attention I got and the compliments made me feel sexy and I loved the attention but I also know it wasn’t real so I could talk it up with someone and just log off like that no strings attached. People usually understood when you just disappeared. I loved it so much but it was tearing me apart. If I had been single with no kids I would have gotten sucked in way too deep. The problem is that I’m married with kids and have no business doing that shit. But it def falsely filled a void and cured my lonliness temporarily. But it’s probably the most addictive thing I’ve ever experienced. And the more I did it I found myself focusing on what I wanted less and crowd pleasing more which had me doing some kinda shameful things. If you want to stop it’s probably a good idea. If not maybe try to bond with one of the girls who doesn’t do it for the money. I found quite a few women on cam sites who were just in it for fun and some platforms give an option where you don’t have to charge. Ultimately I pray for a change of heart in your marriage and love life in person, so you won’t feel so lonely and like you have to reach so far for companionship. Thanks for sharing your story.

 

Sorry this is a really old post but I'm totally in same boat as u. I have my own Jane who really is a good person. I do have some feelings of not wanting to let her down or lose her. Im just starting the process of trying to end camsite addiction. Ive thrown away almost all my savings. And it's affecting my work & life. And definitely an addiction.
I'm trying to treat it as breaking up with a girlfriend. Where I know its gonna hurt for awhile. I mean if she really liked me we would b talking for free by email. So it's not real and I'm trying my best to end this.
It seemed harmless to me too for awhile as long as I could afford it but its turned pretty toxic. (I dont have Parkinson's but have something similar called Dystonia). Wish u the best whatever direction u decide but i definitely relate to your story.

 

I was just remembering this episode of this Netflix special, I think it's called Hot Girls Wanted where it featured this guy in Australia who flew a camgirl he regularly pays over there, who was married though they all knew including the husband.

It seems obvious if we take a step back that you have the middleman, the platform that takes a good cut by basically facilitating the feeding of people's addiction to each other.

 

Maybe Jane tried, being a 19yo in a shity world she did even more than expected!

I may dare to say that you were not sincere with your wife by not telling that you wanted sex. And it's fine if you still want sex.
I wish you all the best in finding what suits you and never stop believing that.
It's not Jane for sure but some lady suited for you that still wants sex may be there... Jane helped in keeping the boat from sinking but in the end the lifeboat may be something else..

 

This resonates with the situation I've been dealing with. In short, a "relationship" with a Russian cam girl that's gone on about 10 months and cost me a lot of time and money...even though my rational mind was constantly pointing out the many red flags to me. I haven't met this woman in person and for a long time, I had been thinking that her scam is simply to lead me on a trail of bread crumbs, getting as much money as she can (while proclaiming that she adores me and wants a future with me), but never to actually meet in person. Well, more recently I've begun to think that I probably could meet with her eventually...and maybe she does want a future (or at least a green card)...so long as I can keep forking over a lot of money. But what comes across about this young woman (she's 25), and it's consistent with what I know of her background, is that she is damaged.

I wonder if this is true of many of these cam models...a history of poverty (at least for girls from Eastern Europe and Russia), sexual abuse, emotional abuse...

I often wondered how "my" cam girl could lie so easily and seemingly without conscience...and everything is ultimately about looks and money... Maybe this is the bi-product of the emotional damage earlier in life. I honestly do not know if this girl is capable of love in a real way: despite outward beauty that can be captivating, there is a hardness and coldness...almost sociopathic.

Yet it is difficult to break away because of so much time and money invested...not to mention the skill that she (like other cam models) has in manipulating one's emotions. I have really struggled with ending my compulsive, unhealthy "relationship" with this woman... Which I'm sure says a lot about my own problems, too.

 

It's easy to do. I began talking to "my" cam girl while in a difficult period of my life; I was lonely and working temporarily in a city where I didn't know anyone. She was (like many of them) a master of how to read lonely or otherwise vulnerable men. We would have long private sessions but nothing sexual - no clothes removed, just talking about life. But I would notice that she would do little things to make the sessions go as long as possible...I later learned there's a term for girls like this in their business: a "time bandit." But I didn't care - I enjoyed talking to this very pretty girl who seemed really interested in me. Then Valentine's Day approached and she suggested that we do a session; she said, "Basically, I'm asking you on a date, but online." And from there, she very gradually - over weeks and months - began to transition to making more romantic statements about her intentions. I was completely bought in. We would exchange photos of where we had been traveling; we started sending emails off line (when not in session); she started to refer to me as her boyfriend. All this despite a very big age difference, living 5000 miles apart, and her speaking fairly poor English! What struggles I had with this situation...wasting money almost compulsively on her because the illusion of intimacy is so addicting. Not even a sexual intimacy - a (probably false) emotional intimacy. And honestly, at the end of the day, it has occurred to me that this woman may indeed be seeking a relationship...but it almost appears to be that she's up for the highest bidder. It's purely transactional...and little things she says, and the ways she comes across sometimes...it has made me wonder if she is even capable of love in any real way. So here I am still, struggling to disengage. If you encounter a 5'3" Russian beauty with striking very light blue eyes who starts to says she loves to "connect" and wants to get you on cam mostly to talk....beware!