Hello, 25 y/o newbie here

Hello guys

i’m a 25 year old guy trying to quit porn and fapping. I’ve been on it since i was 12/14..
The impact is pretty effed up been depressed since. Chasing girls being desperate for love and drowning myself in self pity i dont know who i am anymore. I don’t talk to girls i lack a lot of confidence and am scared. I don’t like living this way so I’m trying to give this a shot. Ive tried quiting for years but nothing works and so now im deciding to put an end to this all
Ive been through too much and many heartbreaks already. im doing this to myself its self sabotaging and im fully aware of it. Ive lost loved ones and I just want to be happy. I know no one can save me but me.

-Max ive gone clean is a month
-I plan to start today (Day 0)