Please help me

Find purpose to your life from work or studying or hobbies. Onve you get the ball rolling you will go easier on yourself if you relapse and the relapses will happen a lot less until one day you get rid of this addiction.

 

you've ended in the porn rabbit hole. It's time to get out of it. You can do this. Like everyone here. First chase the small victories (don't watch porn for 1 day, your next goal is 2 days etc..) and you will feel good after a while. We believe in you you can do this.

 

Keep with the small victories. Incorporate mini habits into your routine and come out on top! Good luck!

 

You're still at a reasonably mild place if your only problem so far is that you're fantasizing about some sick stuff.
Many here have reached the point where not only do they feel guilt for consuming this kind of porn, they also can't even get hard without it because this type of fetish has desensitized them to normal stimulation.
So if that can be of any motivation: if you keep consuming porn like that, there is a legit probability that this is what it will lead to.
Consider also that people on this website are a tiny subset of the men who suffer from this. Most men who suffer keep these problems to themselves, or end up with sexual dysfunction without knowing that's what it might be linked to. I've suffered for a decade before I realized this might be the reason for my problem.

I've known a guy, many years ago, whose girlfriend had confided in me that he had started watching piss fetiches and now he was just incapable of cumming without doing piss stuff with her. She was like "is this normal?". Well no, it's not, and it's not a coincidence that the fetich he started consumming heavily on porn happened to be the fetish he became dependent on.
Another of my friend who was single for almost all his life (with little opportunity with women, and therefore, consuming lots and lots of porn) told me that once he finally got a girlfriend and had the opportunity to have real sex, after years of not having any, he was incapable of cumming from anything the girl was doing to him. When he expected his problem would be that he would be too sensitive and would cum too fast, in fact his problem was the opposite: being with a real girl wasn't stimulating enough compared to what he had gotten himself used to.

That's the path you've engaged on now if you keep consuming this porn.

At this point I would say, your priority shouldn't be to not jerk off. It should be to stay away from porn.
When you feel horny, sure, go ahead and jerk. But force yourself to do it without porn. Takes longer? Fuck it. Do it anyway and tough it out. Because if you're finding it hard to get off without it, that's already a sign that you're starting to become dependent on it to perform. If not, well, at least emptying your balls is likely to remove the temptation of consuming porn for a moment.

 

I hate all these addiction. I was good at abstaining from all of these dirty stuff for a couple of months but now feels I am going back to my normal routine… what can I do to get rid of this.. my mind does tell me I need to find a girlfriend rather then looking at pixel on the internet

 

There is a well-known process called "escalation" which involves the way our porn-viewing changes over time. The more we get drawn into the habit, the more we need newer, more shocking images to provoke the thrill we get from seeing them. It's like our minds builds up tolerance to the more normal stuff so we unconsciously start seeking out more graphic, taboo content. Our shame and even horror we feel after a PMO session shows us that this is not really who we are, so we feel confused, "Why am I looking at this aweful stuff?"

Taking a long break from porn can help reset these desires back to your base level self. I have seen some things I truly wish I could forget, awful dehumanizing sickening things - but, after breaking the PMO reinforcement cycle, day after day, week after week, those acquired fetishes begin to recede and your true self has a chance to emerge again (you know, the one that likes normal sex and a relationship with a nice woman).

 

i just keep on relapsing now...dont know what to do after i have been asbtaining from watching porn for 6 months... feels like everything is going back to my usual self. i really dont want to loose out...even today i was doing a abit of private work doing mechanic all my mind keeps on thinking about is finish this job quick and get back onto the internet.. so annoying

 

Abstaining from PMO is essential, but it's only half the battle. We have to replace our self-destructive habits with positive, life-affirming ones. Stopping porn leaves a kind of "hole", and we need to fill it up with other actions - anything that improves our self-esteem and future, so e.g. exercising, socializing, learning, meditation, creative expression, community service, and of course learning to talk and relate to real women again. Sometimes it takes multiple attempts to break the addiction pattern. You've already shown you're strong enough to do it for 6 mos. You can still change your life for the better, friend.

 

My fetishes were quite the opposite but as damaging as yours. Femdom (Female Domination) almost destroyed me. But I bring you good news: you can get rid of your porn addiction. Delete all porn favorites from your browser, delete all porn you may have on your PC and phone, stay away from all things that remind you of porn. That's a good start. You'll win this fight, keep pushing mate!

 

Tell me after I abstain from
Pmo for 6 months but now I started doing it again it feels like once I have pmo I don’t feel as ashamed as I used too??? I think in my head relapse is part of the journey.. I do feel
It’s hurting my brain after I release myself?? God help me please