Can't get threw 1 day...

I'll be honest in that I can't get threw one day.

I've got mild depression not taking my anti's because I just don't want to be on them forever. Especially since its hard swallowing pills, non the less I have a girlfriend right now. It's a bit "Active"... She really enjoys it. But I feel it may be damaging me. I apologize to this forum and site because I feel like an absolute failure. My mind has been in the gutter and depression from society, drivers, people, pandemic, and friends floating away isn't making it any better. I can say though I love her and she's a blessing.

Another thing gone wrong is that I can't particularly smell anymore. It feels like life has been a little more dim, unworthy, dissatisfied. I'm trying real hard to get in touch with some friends but I also feel they don't want to deal with communication.

I've been more interested in my dreams at night lately then day. I can recall more dreams then I've ever been able to and get the feeling of them. I think I need a life coach or something...