Dear Fapstronauts: Today is a new threshold in my recovery and I want to share with you how happy I am. Four months ago I was a sad and depressed porn addict, spending hours of my life as a " creepy, lonely fucker- sitting in a dark room alone, face lit by a mechanical, cold computer screen that does not give a damn about me." This is actually what I wrote the day I started my reboot. I was feeling like shit, my self-esteem was six feet under, and I felt like a loser. God helped me find by chance Gary Wilson's TedTalks, and I realize just then that I was a porn addict. I always thought that the reason for my depression was that I am bisexual, and never heard about porn as an addiction that destroys so many lives. Every month it goes by, I feel happier and more free. This site helped me not only to recover form porn, but also to start changing my life as a whole. I discovered that I was an egocentric, self-centered guy. I learned to give more and not to wait to receive so much. I promise myself to recover the relationship with my wife, which I have been neglecting all these years. I got the support of so many fellow Fapstronauts every time I felt week or was going to fail. I found that I was not alone, and the advise and posts of other members boost my confidence and my ability to succeed. This fourth month brought more changes to my mind and soul. I do not feel sad or depressed anymore, I feel peace and happiness inside my chest like never before. This next weeks are very important for me: on Saturday I will celebrate my 51th birthday, it will be the first birthday in the last 35 years without fapping or watching porn. The following day, Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year will start, and it will be the first time that I will go to the synagogue to thank God for helping me to quit porn, instead of going to cry and pray for my recovery. Too many happy events in the same week, I cannot hold so much proud and happiness. Some of you have followed my struggles from Day 1, and know that this has not been an easy journey. But it is doable, and we all can get rid of this nasty and self-destroying addiction. I want to put the link to some posts that I hope will help some other Fapstronauts in this journey. It is a way to thanks this site and give back some of the good vibe I got here. This is my "Emergency Toolbox" I saved in my cell, and I read when I start feeling the urge: http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?th...ng-my-first-100-days.45178/page-2#post-318947 And these are some Tips for Beginners, the things that I collected from others to start reboot four months ago: http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/tips-that-helped-me-to-start-my-reboot.46617/ Last i want to thank @alexander Rhodes and Mark Queppet, the creators of NoFapAcademy (Alexander is also the creator of this site). I started the Get Clean E-Course of NoFapAcademy during my second month of reboot, and it gave me the boost I was needing by then, when the enthusiasm was declining and my hormones were begging for release. These two guys are incredible, the job they are doing is amazing. They have two video conference calls every Monday where you can ask questions and seek advise, I do not skip one of those for nothing in the world. I strongly encourage all of you to register and do the course if you can afford it (it is much cheaper than any shrink Keep fighting my friends, we can make it happen Fercho
You're the MAN, @fercho29 ! A true source of inspiration and help for all of us. Thank you my friend! God bless you!
I was at the Mall this morning, I was feeling a bit down today until I saw this sign. It cheered me up, it reminded me the famous scene of Dead Poet's Society which I posted here: http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?th...-me-a-lot-during-my-reboot.39774/#post-298396 It gave me energy to cope with one more day of rebooting. This can be an amazing day, and it is up to me to make it extraordinary or to feel a victim of my addiction! Keep fighting Fercho
Today is my 51th birthday, this will be the first birthday in 35 years that I am not addicted to fapping or watching porn. I got up today in a state of happiness and fulfillment , I remembered so many birthdays thinking : another year spent trying to quit "compulsive masturbation" ( Believe it or not, I did not understand that watching porn was the root of my problem, I thought that I was watching porn due to my addiction to bisexual fantasies and masturbation, and not the other way around). This is a very happy day, I have much more to celebrate this birthday than never before Keep fighting Fercho
Congratulations fercho, and happy birthday. 122 days is an amazing achievement and it sounds like you're really feeling the benefits
Thank you @quickpint , your are so kind. Yes, I am very happy with the results of the rebooting, this is the best incentive to stay clean Keep fighting Fercho
Happy Birthday, Fercho. In 6 months I'll be celebrating my 51st, and I hope to be able to say the same.
You will be able to say the same @JoeinMD. Do not doubt about it! Thank you for your greetings Fercho
Great stuff! And happy birthday. I too am having firsts now and savouring every one of them, reinforcing what I'm here for.
