I am antisocial for my reasons, i can hold off porn and masturbation for long time at a stretch, but i'm just not see myself getting into relationship, i just can't imagine that it would be an isolated incident - i refrain from society at large, i'm basically a cave dweller, can't have friends, not beyond certain point, what drove me to nofap this time was that basically i scheduled to kill myself on my last birthday, it didn't workout though, so as weeks passed then months, then i just decided that if i'm too weak to slit my wrists then let me have a go at Life again then... presently i still see my life going nowhere in long term, but nonetheless i somehow found energy and motivation to put myself on some path nonetheless, the odds are all against me, i'm de facto doomed to fail, i'm a total looser, without future, i accept that, i have left all hope for any chance of life of normalcy, i don't care either, i've made my choices and if that means those had left me in the dead end with no possibility of maneuvering myself out of it.. well there was a quote from musashi - something about... well .. lets wait and see... despite all the above - i still wake up early and follow on my activities with motivation and energy. It is all hopeless, but it can't be helped, so what if it all pointless and futile? even if would it be guaranteed to lead me onto the abyss - even in that final journey may i walk resolutely!
Actually the question in the poll should be "which area bothers you the most" - nonetheless if it bothers you the most and you still pull through it, without flying off the handle - that means you're actually enduring it better then you realize
Idk if its really an issue if I've never had a relationship, good god I've been flying solo for almost 30 years...
I fully understand this hopelessness you’re speaking of, and I think if you asked just about anyone else they would say that at one time or another they too have felt the things you are feeling. I think you’re absolutely correct in soldiering on, because we are all hopeless until we are not. Good luck brother and I’ll leave you with something my mother told me today, “despair is to deny God’s power.” I don’t know if you’re religious but the truth is only by faith and hope can we realize anything good.
