So yeah. 15 years of ruining my life. Atleast 7 of which have directly led me to procrastinate and not achieving what i want to achieve. I really believe its a cruel cycle. Usually when i masturbate, afterwards i feel an urge to eat which leads to overeating thus weight gain. i feel shit about it afterwards and feel like a loser who cant achieve anything. This feeling lingers inside and I feel like shit most of the time. I have a great wife and a son. My wife knows nothing about this and its effecting my relationship with her too. Imagine this, i prefer porn and masturbation to having sex with my wife. I do think due to 15 years of masturbation, genital desensitization is an issue for me. Although i dont have ED or PIED. But i do believe if i dont leave this cycle, it would eventually lead to that. Lately i have been trying to get my life on track. Try and achieve my goals and dreams and i have noticed a pattern. Whenever i set my goals for a day, as soon as i masturbate, i have no energy left. I usually masturbate after waking up and then after that, i get the urge to eat which is usually not eating more like overeating. Then i feel shit the rest of the day. I have spent 2 years procrastinating like this. My mind keeps playing tricks with me. Whenever i say, no more masturbation, it says, lets start from tomorrow. Lets have the best last masturbation session today. The same with eating and doing things i wanna do to achieve what i wanna achieve. A lot of issues to deal with for me. But i do believe that porn and masturbation has made me weak both in willpower and energy level. So here i am trying to get this fucking virus out of my life. I know it wont be easy but i feel this is a crucial point in my life. If i am to do anything i am proud of in this life, its now or never. I am already late but what other choice do i have. I have started today. Lets see where it leads.
Deberías conversar con tu pareja acerca del tema. Cuando una pareja se casa es por que se ama asi que ella deria entenderte bro. Con su apoyo podra ser mas facio salir del porno. Suerte!
I wish I could brother but it is also a religious thing. It is something that I need to do myself. but I will do it. Thanks, bro.
Hey welcome. I'm new here too. First post was yesterday. I identify with so many things u said. I'm 35, been fapping since 13 with some extreme surges in between. The eating isn't a thing for me though. I do it when bored or anxious or want to procrastinate. My usual thing is open up an incognito tab on my phone when I want to check bad sites but one thing I'm gonna do is leave nofap opened as a tab instead so hopefully I'll be prompted to come here first instead of going to bad sites. I have a little stash of material that I need to slowly rid myself of too.
thank you guys for sharing your stories, for Slakka, I already know I need to use this site more often but sometimes i forget and may have contributed to my recent relapse (im at 9 days now). I'm 29 and started around 12 years old. I have a great wife and 2 sons, I could say I had some progress, my last streak was 73 days without PMO, if it would help you to know. Im dealing with anxieties with life in general and being addicted to PMO have stuttered my growth, I could've been a better person. I know we can overcome this, even just one day at a time
Thank you Slakka and Limitbreak for ur replies. Somehow its comforting to know that i am not alone on the boat. We have to go through it. There is no choice if we want to have a better life. Its fucked our life till now. No more.
Seems like a very minor achievement for me here but I've now made 24 hours without M although I've had the time and opportunity to do so. I've visited some bad sites in between but navigated away. Need to keep distracting myself away from that familiar feeling
I know i have a lot of potential. But all my energy is getting wasted. I dont want to be the person who lacks willpower and strong mind. I really dont want to do this and iam aware that i am driven towrds this but i am so helplessly sucked into it. I am afraid to commit that i will not do it. What if i fail? Because most of time i cannot keep up with my commitment these days. But have gathered courage and say no to fap and throw this out of my life. I am not doing this for anyone ,I am doing this for myself because i love my self and i am a hundred percent sure iam far better than this. This is a fight with myself. So ya here its me 27 year old turning 28 this month . Started masterbating since 2007 and till 2022 1 jan. Yes i did it today also.but i wl not do it from today .So taking a 7 days challenge at first then head my ways upto 90 days. I wish to complete 90 days in a single go. I dont know if i wll be able to do it but i wll definitely try more than best this time . Enough is enough . I cant be my own enemy. Congratulations to all of you guys who have identified their root cause of every problem and decided to eliminate it. I respect everyone decisions . I will keep everything posted . We will have to support each other and overcome this.
Thank you for this message, im dealimg with anxiety now and mostly am triggered to watch, but youre message is sobering
We can do this guys. Remember that it's a fucking virus sucking all good life has to offer out of life. I am still at the beginning and have been traveling so didn't have much time to think about porn but I am committed and won't disrespect myself like that anymore. we can do this. more importantly, we have to do this.
Step by step, day by day my friend. don't lose hope and keep trying. remember why we are doing this. u can do this. we can do this.
Welcome, thanks for sharing your story.. So.. Your wife doesnt know about your addiction? Like, the past struggle and the current relapse? Well.. My best advice is confession. You need to talk with her about it... Like DON'T KEEP ANYTHING, say it out everything and all the truth about your addiction.. Be honest, sincere, cry out... This gonna save your life and marriage! Idk your story but if she married you without knowing about your addiction then she deserves to know the truth now and then, after talk to her look for profesional help... I know I make it sound easy.. dude, it took me 15 years to confess to my parents and siblings.. I KNOW ISN'T EASY but you know.. truth will set you free.. So please, confess.. and check this post: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...te-my-dopamine-receptors.166287/#post-1410049 IT HELPED ME A LOT. One day at a time. Suerte.
Hello, friend! I don't know whether you believe in God, but the quoted thought has confirmed to me again that there are certain spiritual dark forces that are incredibly interested in to pump out life energy from the men. That is why so much money is being wasted to make porn, promote sexual immorality, and so on. Especially if a man decides to leave masturbation he will encounter an unthinkable difficulty of implementing this (firstly because the main battle is in the spiritual realm).
Hello, Good luck with NoFap! I can identify with a lot of what you said. Procrastination is also a problem for me.
