Thank you @Longtime and@Psalm for your feedback and support. I'm glad to have someone I can discuss these issues with. I wish my wife would be open to discussing but I've tried in the past and it just hasn't gone anywhere. I'm not optimistic about the golden years coming up. I don't really see us resolving anything but we will coexist in a marriage with diminishing love. I feel that actively viewing porn will not be a problem anymore but i will have to deal with its effects. I will also have to be more aware of how it has affected her. Pondering the "what if" questions probably isn't helpful, it's just my pity party.
That really touched me because I'm so familiar with your situation. It is happening to me right now. I'm 26. Never have a girlfriend. It was not very common in my religious society till last (let say) 10-15 years and it was like a stigma. Now, I don't have that much money, I don't have a decent job (although I have a Master degree in Mechanical Eng.) , I'm not Attractive to have a girl friend. And only hope for me was getting married some day so all of this hardship goes away. Recently I understand that because of my porn usage ,my sex-drive is so inflated which no ordinary woman can satisfy it so I should quit ! But thinking of being stuck in a marriage like that scares me so much.