I tried to quit but the weight is heavy on my head

You didn't relapse because your determination was low, you relapsed because you're a sex addict. It is possible for us to not have to act out even though we'll always be different than other people: I'm still a sex addict after years of not having to use pm+ and every day acceptance of that fact is a big part of how I'm kept sober.
Sounds like you might be feeling despair, that's ok. Not only can it not hurt you or make you do anything since it's a feeling but it's useful as a place to start taking direction.

 

I’m not sure if you’re Spiritual or in anyway, but try praying to god for a sense of clarity and focused mind set. This has helped me in the past and it does help. We should focus on our will power and our strength.

I used to be a work out junky and did abs a whole lot. This helped pre rush dopamine before the P. Naturally…


Think about it this way. If we lived in the wild there would be no time for P. We would be on the move with out time or space. Thinking about food every few hours to keep us busy. Being out side would as well boost our energy fields.