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Hi,

LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING. HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHY YOU'RE SO CONFUSED? WELL SO HAVE I...
IN FACT I TEND TO WONDER OFTEN. I WONDER OFF INTO MY OWN LITTLE WORLD, AND SINCE YOU'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO SEE THIS MARVELOUS WORLD OF MINE I'LL TELL YOU HERE.
IF YOU'D LIKE TO KNOW MY NAME, LETS JUST SAY NAMES ARE PRETTY BUT USELESS. BUT IF YOU MUST KNOW MY NAME IS JONATHAN AND I AM HERE FOR THE SAME REASON AS YOU ARE. I ALWAYS WONDER WHY BIRDS CHOOSE TO STAY IN THE SAME PLACE WHEN THEY CAN FLY ANYWHERE ON EARTH. THEN I ASK MYSELF THE SAME QUESTION.

GROWING UP AS A KID WAS NOT SO TOUGH IN MY PERSPECTIVE. I HAVE NEVER HAD A FATHER AND MY MOTHER WAS SELFISH. I GREW UP IN A MAGICAL BEAUTIFUL HOUSE WITH MY GRANDPARENTS AND MY AUNTS - FELT LIKE REAL FAMILY SPIRIT AT THAT TIME. SO, YES I HAD A FATHER FIGURE AS MY GRANDPA. AND MY CHILDHOOD SEXUAL SPARK WAS OFTEN INTO WOMEN IN VIDEO GAMES, TV, MAGAZINES, AND EVEN IN PERSON. I WAS A VERY SEXUAL CHILD. I FIRST FAPPED WHEN I WAS 13 AND HONESTLY IT DID FEEL AMAZING, NOW THIS YEAR IS STRESSFUL. MASTURBATING AT PORN, PICTURES, AND VIDEOS HAS TORN ME BECAUSE IT IS NOT WHO I AM, THIS IS WASTING MY ENERGY ON DOING THINGS THAT I WANT TO IMPROVE ON.​