I did it, I regret it and I hate it. I'm sick and tired of this shit. Always the same cycle, try your best get urges and relapse. I see no light, is there even a hope for me? I'm tired of being tired. My biggest wish was to complete 90 day challenge before my birthday but I failed it. I feel like a shit and I'm very pathetic. I just wanna jump from top of the building and end this pain. It's NNN and because that I feel even bad.
Hope my personal opinions can help you a bit I think writing down your goal on completing 90 day challenge somewhere can help? For me I write down my goal in my iPhone apps which I always open so that I won't forget Second, try to actively avoid all stuff that's gonna link you to pornography or sexual thoughts? For me if I have a weak moment to let myself open social networking sites, reels or videos people having few clothes on can gradually lead me to watching more and more and the vicious cycle appears again. The snowballing effect. Third, always actively think how to improve our belief system especially about pornography? Our mind always changes. Every single time after relapsing, we regret and every article related to quitting porn will suddenly becomes meaningful to us. But when we let down our guard a bit or whenever our body gets improve by a bit, the knowledge we absorbed from those articles just went away and we justified it's time to watch porn again, so I think understanding different stages we are going to experience in recovery is important so that we have different tools and enough preparation to face every new challenge. My short term goal is to quit PMO and maintain until the end of this year. I always fail in setting a long-term goal because it feels like I can do recovery anytime and I don't have to start by today, so I set a short one instead, and one after one
I’m sorry to here that man. Relapse is part of the process, you just get back up and try again don’t go back into the cycle. Good luck man
Please hang in there! In a sense we must be appreciative that we have so many chances to get back up and try again! You still have the chance and possibility for a great run! We still have a lot of November to go through. One should not eliminate oneself entirely for a relapse. Let us stay in the game together.
Bro. I can't seem to make it to e days. 17 days is a great victoria man. For real. I'm sure u feel horrible. But look around. There's alot of us can make it that far yet. You doing amazing and can do better bro
