pmo ruined my life and love.

hi guys, i am 26 year old virgin male from india.


i started mo when i was 13 year old. and got addicted to pmo. mine is a very sad story (atleast for me). due to pmo,
1.i am overweight. 94 kgs. hegiht 5'10.

2.projecting pmo fantasies on my love. including cuck and other disgusting stuff. i see all woman as prostitutes and whores. who cheat including the one i love. (mine is one side love though.)

3.low sex libido, i dont know about PIED coz never had real sex. but i can say that my penis is weak now, and i orgasm very less. and ofcourse doesnt stay hard form more time. i used to have 6 to 8 orgasms. a day and 2 to 3 consequtive orgasms in earlydays. now 3 for a day and ofcourse its very very less. and time of ejaculation is also very less.

4. extreme guilt, and depression(including suicidal tendancies, ) after any orgasm.

5. i dint have any degree, coz have many backlogs. no job. became a loner. live on parents money.

so i guess i will be healed by rebooting. ive tried many reboots. had many resets. 19 days was max for me. now a days, 2 to 3 days of resets occuring. (all this happened with out the name rebooting or reset. i used to do it on my own.).

since i am here now. after reading all this stuff and success-stories i guess i will succed this time. i might be my 15th or 16th reset. i dont remember how many times i failed. but i hope this time i win

 

thanks friends. first day was not tough. kinda edged a little but put off the computer. and slept. i had no fantasies what so ever. thats a great news for me. so i hope this stays forever.

 

thanks friend, for comment. it really means a lot to me. thanks

 

thanks friend, your comment mean a lot to me.. ,

 

am on day 3. not so difficult to fight these thoughts. but am afraid, i am getting voilent thoughts and dreams. may be this is just withdrawal symptoms. but any ways am so happy now.

 

thanks friend for the words. yes we all are facing this monster. some how we got trapped . i know when we win this. we will rise again with awesome will power

 

day 3

it was so hard guys. i think i am breaking down. i did watch porn and masturbated, but dint oragasm.

i managed finally. no orgasm.. , but should not even watch porn. some one said it right. we should just not let thoughts run in our minds. should cut all lust thoughts in starting itself. once the rock starts to roll from the top. its difficult. managing hard to put that rock on the top again , i nkow i will do it.

 

day 6.
worst phase in my life now. something like shattering my entire reality,, but still no thoughts on fapping. i think i have mixed feelings. i dont see any hope in future. but regarding fapping its ok. i think i will win this monster. i am also feeling sick now. mild fever i guess. i dont feel like living any more though.