Questions about where i stand

Hi everyone. I've never really talked to anyone about this kind of stuff but i feel here is a good place to start, as everyone seems to be on the same boat. I started watching porn around 7-8 years ago. I've kind of never really thought about it, as i felt everyone does it etc etc (yknow, the usual stuff). So skipping ahead a few years i started watching more and more...specific porn. Then around a year ago i started to realize some things. I've never been in a serious relationship with anyone yet and i'm worried that i may not ever end up finding the girl to live the rest of my life with. I don't consider myself ugly or an awkward person socially as i do have a good amount of friends (guys and girls). I'm just no good at flirting as i have a bit of a self esteem problem. Now, going back to porn, i also came to realize that because I've been watching porn my whole life , i worry (actually i pretty much know for a fact) i will not be able to get up when the time comes. I feared that this can be a detrimental thing when i finally grow some balls and find someone to date. I see many people talk about how they can't find women because porn sets their standards high. Thankfully, i don't consider this the case as i am attracted to pretty much any girl who looks good ("porn star attractive" or not). So anyway, i finally told myself enough is enough and decided to quit PMO because i feared it will hinder any future relationship i may have, which at this point is really all i want (someone who sees me more than a friend...sorry to get all sappy). After 2 months i relapsed and went full cycle again (which felt terrible). After like 2 weeks, i decided to cut down gradually. I went from PMOing 5 times a week to only once a week and finally stopping. Then, for whatever reason, i decided to start only MO but no P. On my 60th day of doing this i decided to stop all together. I am now on day 90 of no P, but only day 30 of no MO. Now, i don't know if this is progress but i can now get it up by just touching it (something i used to not be able to do) and have occasional visions of a girl giving me head (something also rather uncommon for me as porn used to be the only thing that could get it up). Just the other day however i gave in and watched P but didn't MO. I feel really guilty and am worried any progress i made had been lost... I'm curious as to where do you guys think i stand on the matter.