Have a question and already preparing for the negative responses. I'm 60yo and a porn addict. Recently I discovered Twitch streamers. I never got into gaming but there's a young lady I've watched and chatted with (polite, platonic) and I really enjoyed hearing her answer me and watching her. No MO trigger and i felt really happy after just talking with her this evening. Can this be part of my recovery ? What do I need to watch out for ? The young lady is cute, smart, and I'm old enough (too old?) to be her Dad. It was maybe more pleasurable than porn AND non triggering. 30 minutes is about the longest I've watched so far.
I think there's nothing wrong here. From what you say she sounds like a stand up streamer, not engaging in anything sexual with her viewers. I'd say this is a good emotional support for recovery, we all need a gal like this especially. I turned down twitch a long time ago, because I saw allot of Woman just making there viewers praise them. Spend money in chat and just there for them to brag and making it be all about them self's. It really turned me off and I haven't went back to twitch. I would see the number of views on the streams go up and I knew exactly why.. Explicit revealing clothing, and cleavage. I knew for a fact half of them weren't there just to watch the stream. Anyway. This is sounding good so far mate, I think you two have a great connection.
Hey sir! My advice would be to watch your step carefully. As much as it can feel nice to have the attention and the interaction, it can actually produce the opposite feelings... Of lonyless and even drive you to feel that real interactions can't compare to virtual ones, depression. Not meaning to be over dramatic but this is a reality and a lot of people struggles with it. I did some years ago. The other thing is, it could also lead to you using more cam sites and to try to interact with people in a sexual way through internet... Just watch your step and if you notice that you can't stop thinking about her or stop checking on twitch, then you have found your red flag already. Good luck!
Thanks @Newwaters22 I know there are webcam sites that offer actual porn. That's never interested me and my "poison of choice" has always been still photos. With the streamers, there are others in the chat so I've been extremely careful of what I say and always respectful to the streamer girl. However I really don't care to watch others playing online games.
I never much cared for cam girls, but to each their own. Just remember that she's only there to make money, no matter how endearing she appears to be.
Exactly. Now that men have seen every kind of porn imaginable, the next grift is online girls pretending to be interested in talking to you.
Parasocial relationship there is nothing to gain from it only to lose. As suggested above get help via therapy or try journaling to understand your emotions and why you came to this point.
My life can feel unfulfilled when I'm not having a FACE-To-Face interactions with people that I can actually spend time with. Looking at digital images, including ones with real people interacting with me is not enough. It leads to boredom and loneliness and that's one of the reasons I would run to porn to escape. Go live life the way it was meant to be lived, turn off your electronics and go find some real life experiences.
Update: There are only two live streamers I like and they never seem to be streaming when I can watch. Also I DO believe they are there to make money from guys viewing and admiring them. Heck, one of these ladies has over 900,000 followers ! Watching is less and less appealing and/or convenient. It's kinda stupid really.
