Hi everybody. I hope someone could read this journal, my name is Miguel, I'm from Peru and my native language is spanish, as you probably know, that's why my english it's not that good , I'm 20 years old and I started watching porn probably since I was 12, It was natural for me, my parents used to tell me that it wasn't wrong, "It's normal in a man or woman to watch sometimes porn", they used to say that to me, so I grown up thinking that watching porn was good and masturbation as well. I also used to believe that watching porn could help me at the time of having sex, was like getting prepare for the big moment on my life, having the knowledge of how to performance during that moment was critical for me, so I was just "preparing" myself, you wanna hear something funny? At the time of having my first sexual experience I realized that I had, and still have, ED (Erectile dysfunction). What I felt in that moment is that I prepared myself for nothing, I was really confused, I was wondering myself why I could have ED, I thought it was something that happens only to old man; after researching in websites and books, I realized that PORN was the main guilty, I also found this Brain Buddy App and start my journey of leaving porn and masturbation behind. I started using the app and quitting PMO on August 26th but until today my longer strike has been 11 days clean of PMO after that I entered into a vicious circle of quitting and relapsing again, that's why today I'm deciding to quit PMO for good, and I really hope I could use all your help on my way, day by day until the day I can say "I beat you" I also would like to share with you guys something that I discovered when I was getting knowledge about cases of Porn addiction, If you get up this point I just wanna say thank you, this probably could really help you and change your way of seeing things. I discovered that our lifes, who you are right now, the house where you live, the job that you have, how rich you are, how fit you are, everything came from decisions that we made in the past, seems pretty obvious right but it's not, the line of the time is very unpredictable, as we've seen in a lot of movies about time travel, a tiny thing in the past could change the future in a dramatic way, that lead me to think that exist many alternative futures, this means that your present , where you are right now, was your future in the past, your decisions made this, your present. What I´m trying to say is that you are strong enough to control you're future, any decision that you take now however small is, could define your future, you could decide to give up PORN, decide to invest in that project that you were thinking of, decide to talk to that girl that you always like, you control your future and you could lead it to the happiest of your dreams or the worst of your nightmares. I'll be in touch and thank you for reading me, today ways the day one of cleaning myself of PORN, I hope I could reach the top. Miguel calmet
Welcome. Thanks for sharing. I wish you much success on your journey. Here is an awesome post that will help you a lot! http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/my-top-tips-for-leaving-pmo-behind.35201/
yeah man that vicious circle of relapse ,,,it happens it happened to me but now i have changed now i can make a real commitment because each relapse teach u one thing that u cannot satisfy ur hunger by mastubrating for the one last time,its just like extinguishing fire by pouring kerosene.U are a man who think of the future relates to the past i consider u perfectly correct 101 % thats a fact so i want u to take the NOFAP NOVEMBER MISSION its in the rebooting section,the rule here is u cant even edge till november 30 ,12 pm.The rule is U WILL HAVE TO PLEDGE URSELF TO THE MISSION BY SWEARING ON UR MOST LOVED PERSONS LIFE only then u will be accepted,u cant relapse even if u want to,i challenge u to join the NOFAP NOVEMBER MISSION,lets see can u commit today that by 12pm on november 30 u will be completely clean http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/join-nofap-november-mission.50832/
For sure, I accept the challenge, I've been two days clean of PMO, i started on november 1st and I will get to the 30 th being happy for been a step further from beating this addiction. Good luck bro
One more day one my personal record, It is my third day clean of PMO, and i feel relaxed, no temptations at all probably because i've been busy the whole day, my goal is to reach one month clean and from then keep going and leaving behind this addiction. I saw this video and i really like it, and want it to share you guys. Greetings!!
Hey Miguel. I understand perfectly well what you said. I was very confused as well in my first sexual encounter, as to why I wasn't as excited as I normally was through porn. In fact, its caused me problems with women in the past in the sense that it took me a long time to be ready for intercourse, and in some cases failing altogether. I was baffled that me, being young, had this problem, until I also researched and pin pointed porn addiction as the main culprit. The guilt was horrendous, and I had no one to talk to. In fact, I was prone to thinking that something was seriously wrong with me and that my condition would be incurable. But thank God I found this site, and discovered that I was not alone, and that there is a way to get yourself back together. So go for it buddy! I also decided to quit just recently, and we can completely re-take our lives. You can do it man! - From a Chilean brother.
Hello, What you said here is very much like a book I read that you might be interested in called "The slight edge" by Jeff Olson. He discusses how it's easy to do the right thing and it's easy to do the wrong thing. In our lives it's all the little daily right decisions that we make that makes us successful. You may like the book, I think it's a good read for people trying to quit PMO. "I discovered that our lifes, who you are right now, the house where you live, the job that you have, how rich you are, how fit you are, everything came from decisions that we made in the past, seems pretty obvious right but it's not, the line of the time is very unpredictable, as we've seen in a lot of movies about time travel, a tiny thing in the past could change the future in a dramatic way, that lead me to think that exist many alternative futures, this means that your present , where you are right now, was your future in the past, your decisions made this, your present."
I'll read it for sure bro, thanks for the advice, I made that theory based on my personal experience. Today was my day number four of cleaing myself of PMO, today was a bit tricky I felt tempted of watching porn, luckily I managed to control myself and spend the rest of the day doing stuff for my college, I will beat this addiction for sure. Stay Strong Bros!!
