malicieus's Journal.

Ok so Here I go.

I am seventeen and come from France. I want to definitely erase porn and masturbating of my life since I experienced a huge difference in only 3 days stop on my skin. (I have a little bit of acne and I look a little tired). I also belive in the fact that nofap is much more than that. It may increase a lot of things beside my skin. I think I can only get better with time and devotion.

Adding to that, I consider masturbating as a waste of time, it occupies mind after a few days. I want to erase that cause it affects my work somehow. When I do work on my computer (learning korean for example) after a few days without PMO'D, it is starting to urge in my head and affect my work. I need to get out of that.

I only eat healthy foods (lots of proteins, vegetables, fruits, low fat meat, no sugar, only water, not so much alcohol one time per week) practice sport a lot (calisthenics/running) and everything is fine except that.

So here my journey start, I will keep that topic alive each day with a little message.

I won't give up, cause I never give up in life, in work, in sport, why would I here? I will do my best.

Well, See you tommorow for my first post on here.

 

DAY 1 :

Everything is fine for now. Drinking my tea before starting my workout.
Nothing else to say at the moment.

 

DAY 2 :

Almost the same kind of day as yesterday. Really busy day and I am preparing to go running now. Don't have time to think about it for now.
Next update tommorow (It is just the beginning, nothing really to say at the moment, I will share a lot more things in the days coming.)

 

DAY 3 :

I am now on my fourth day ! It went fine. I watched some awesome videos on how porns affect our brain yesterday so it changed my mind a bit and it added one more reason to not masturbate anymore.

I am starting to think about it, but I always keep porn out of my mind. I am actually starting to "trick my mind".

I stay strong, and focus on my objectif : 90 DAYS hard-mode.

It is only the beginning of a long journey, but it is also maybe the hardest part.
See you at the end of the fourth day for the next update.

 

DAY 4 :

Thanks Psychonaut for your message, I appreciate your advices

My fourth day went fine. It was also my first "full day" in my nofap journey where I could totally fap. I mean, no school, nothing specials to do, I could have done it, but didn't think about it for now. No urges or anything. Every thing is fine and I am happy for now !

This day I also installed covenant eyes with my accountability partner on all my devices. I definitely recommand you guys to install it ! It's amazing !
It blocks not only all P sites, but every research on google are also hidden. For example on google : you write ":yourfavoritepornstar:/(nevermind who it is) you will have no more results coming on !

That's a really nice dissuasion tool because my accountability partner can check at any time,what I searched, what websites I tried to access...

See you tommorow for the next update on day 5 !

 

DAY 5 :

Day 5 went to be a busy day. From 8Am to 3a.m wasn't home (school>home friends>a little party !)
Had no time to think about this !

See you at the end of the day for my update on DAY 6 !

 

DAY 6 :

Starting to think a little bit more about PMO today. Avoid it by walking outside, working without computer and doing sports.
I am close to a full week without PMO ! And that's already a first accomplishment for me !

I won't give up !

See you tommorow for the next update

 

OK

BIG UPDATE Day 7 Day 8 AND DAY 9

Sorry for this !

I had not time to update my journal.. i'm am really busy this days.. So it is also a nice way to avoid P M or O !

I have almost at every moments something to do these days so that's perfect for my goals.

I will continue to update my journal with time.

I started meditation in these three last days, I only do it before I sleep cause, as I said I haven't much time. But still, I think meditation is awesome and I will continue to explore this "thing".

 

DAY 10 :

Full working day... haven't time yet to think about PMO, well, I can do it when I get back home at the end of the day, but I am pretty much exhausted so it makes it really simple to avoid. What I just want is eating, taking a shower and sleeping right after.

That's fine, and I am starting to feel really happy about my "NEW HABITS"

No meditation today, and no time to answers messages... I m taking two minutes here to keep my journal updated cause I think it is really important.

See you tommorow