Day 1

My whole life I've always struggled with my addictions. One of them has been porn.
Naturally I'm harder on myself than others are on themselves, so, as you can imagine faping has made my life hard for about 15 years.
When I look back, life always seemed to have treated me better when I wasn't faping.
Over the weekend I went to pornography too many times. Tonight, I came across this website for the first time and I'm writing this to help motivate myself to stop this act once and for all.
The longest I've previously gone is six weeks during a camp.

 

Day 9
So far I've gone 9 days without PMO!
I feel a lot better inside and out. Its just like they say, less brain fog, more ambition to go out and meet girls, more focus, confidence, overall just feeling better about yourself. In the back of my mind I still want to PMO but I'm forcing myself to stay a float.
The only motivation thats sincerely making me continue is the attention I'm getting from girls. Girls at the supermarket, girls working the counter at lunch, girls just looking at me in public whether it be a street, mall, stoplight..
I usually never get this kind of attention. I don't understand how this works intentionally. I mean its not like girls know when a guy PMO's or not. Its weird. Oh well, I'm still single and haven't gotten laid in quite some time. Maybe something will actually click soon.

 

Day 11
Wow! I was so close to relapse today. I can't believe my struggle and how hard this actually is. My brain just insists on wanting to MO. I can force myself to prevent the P but MO is so likely to happen. I'm really trying to go out and do things but its hard in the winter time and when its always raining here. Last night, I was able to go bowling with some friends and I ended up beating all 20 people in the group. I was the best bowler of the night which isn't saying too much since everyone barely made it over 100 but still, I was the champion. Maybe that was my 10 day reward for not fapping.

 

Day 14
Two weeks and I feel more in control. I've thought about going under quite a bit but this confidence of knowing that I can fight it has grown superbly. No social life this weekend. Boring. I should be out doing things and enjoying life for I've been pretty good these past couple of weeks. However, I believe my antibiotic medication for my infection is whats controlling my laziness and lack of energy. Always something that has to be in the way.

 

Thanks! I'll go ahead and switch it over