Joining the guys...

Yep, my story is the same as many of you. Don't know how I came across this website and honestly didn't even know what "fap" meant. I am a 43 year old guy that loves masturbation more than anything. I am married and realized my masturbation addiction was affecting my desire to have sex... Actually masturbation is just so easy and you can be totally selfish in how you want to get off.

I probably realized this issue a year ago. Never thought I would be writing all of this in a journal to other guys but hell I am willing to give it a try. I probably masturbated 2-3 times days and sometimes more. I just needed to feel that quick surge of "feel good" even though I knew the downer would kick in and would leave me feeling blah for a while afterwards. I would even masturbate to the point of having nothing to shoot out.... Worst of all feelings actually.

I am fairly athletic and have been focusing on my lap swimming for the last year. I truly think this reboot process will help me with my performance in the water. I know there is a lot of controversy about whether masturbation takes always your mojo but I am attest that my energy levels are impacted, particularly if I masturbate right before swimming. Would love to hear anyone else's comments on this topic...

As for porn, I got into BDSM stuff years ago. Love anything BDSM and realized the more I read and looked at pictures/videos the more I broke down barriers of what I liked or was interested in... An endless loop. I even got to a point where I needed to think of extreme stuff to get off.

My goal is to join the ranks of this group of guys and try to reboot. I never thought writing this stuff down would help but actually I just took a deep breath and it feels kinda good.

Happy to discuss anything with anyone and from what I see this is the sentiment of most on this forum.

Thanks everyone in advance for your support.

 

Hey PMOlessOhio, would definitely be interested in chatting with you. This is going to be a tough journey and still don't really have my head wrapped around it all. Let me know if you still are interested in chatting and we can go from there....