Hey there I'm Peter. I've always been into porn. Until recently I've never really had many friends so I'd spend night alone feeling bored and lonely and leaning towards porn to give me some pleasure. It's affected many areas of my life. For example, I've had many instances where I've been with someone and I simply couldn't get hard and when I did it would take forever to orgasm, a lot of the time I'd also have to thinking about sexual stuff in order to orgasm, even though all the women I've been with have been absolute stunners. Going vegan has helped a lot with erectial dysfunction but I still find it difficult to cum quickly and I still find myself having to thinking about sexual stuff in order to climax. I went from normal porn in my early teens and slowly developed an interest in more intense porn videos and fetishes; femdom, cuckold, small cock humiliation (even though I have a perfectly normal sized penis) gangbang, etc. Not only do I feel ashamed about this but I also feel like this has affected potential relationships. I also find myself watching porn, masturbating and then suddenly deciding to go on facebook or check out a totally unrelated website and then go back to masturbating. I found out that this is called edging and is also related to porn addiction. One of my big issues is that I'm into cuckold. Which is basically getting more turned on by the thought of your partner doing naughty things with another guy than actually doing it yourself. I used to think this was a competitive thing. But I saw a reddit thread which explained perfectly that due to my porn addiction I'm more used to being a voyeur than a participant. Cuckold has affected potential relationships, I tend to bring it up pretty quickly and rightly so most women think it's odd. My cuckold fetish is one of the main reasons why I'm doing this I think it will ultimately stop me from having a relationship it also brings with it sexual health risks and the potential of my gf/wife becoming pregnant. I've also been with prostitutes in the past, which I strongly believe is linked with my porn addiction. Anyway, sorry if that is too much detail, wish me luck.
Hi Peter. Welcome! I just joined a couple of days ago in search for answers. You'll find many similar stories, and you'll find that's the nature of this addiction: it keeps progressing and it becomes harder to "scratch that itch". I went from plain "vanilla" porn to all kinds of kinks and fetishes. I too found myself fantasizing about all kinds of wild sex while having sex so I could reach an orgasm. This thing never lets up. But I am hopeful! I lurked around these forums before joining, and was encouraged by the stories and support others have shared. I wish you the best in your battle. Hang in there and don't give up!
As a woman I can tell you there is nothing sexier than being with a man who doesn't PMO. It makes a HUGE difference. Just stop! Seriously. You're cheating yourself out of one of life's amazing pleasures over pixels on a screen.
