Why did you become addicted to porn? Here's my story, sound familiar?

I was just exposed to porn at a very young age. I just got hooked at a very very young age and its been like that since. Now at 25 it so damn hard to stop, but im determined. Also i agree on the things to. I need to do all those too especially the social life thing. I need to find new friends since i lost all mine thanks to my Porn/internet addiction.

 

You know what you need to do. Those are all good and positive things, such a good way to live. Self control is the ultimate virtue! Stay strong!

 

There was always porn in my house growing up, we'll, porn mags anyway. I got started on those when I was about, 10? Shit, I'm not sure. I always say I've suppressed a lot of my past and can't remember much. Okay, maybe it was more like 12. I encountered porn sort of just before puberty though I didn't start using it for fapping till I was maybe 17. That was around the time we started getting regular Internet access, you know, you'd stay up all night and only see 3 women!.
I remember tryna hack my brothers password tryna get to his porn stash. So embarrassing, but funny too!
I think most of my brothers were using p too. Even my dad, he was the one with the p mag stash.
From 18 I used a lot of online p and pmo would alway feature in my life to a greater or lesser extent for the next 12 years. That's so crazy.

I've started making good progress in recovery now. I have realized how a decade of hard core p has reprogrammed my brain. I am so blessed to have loved ones around to help me REBOOT and recover.
One love!

 

Good luck mate. Stick with it

 

Yeah sounds very familiar. Could never relate to anyone at school, was bullied a lot by a group of people and didn't know what to do about it. Porn, video games and the internet in general were means to escape from the horrible feelings and forget my problems for a while.

What I should do instead (and what we should all do, I think) is figure out better ways to deal with our troubling emotions, such as meditation, exercising, getting in touch with friends, talk to people about our problems, etc.
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Exactly.

We need to find healthier ways to get our dopamine fix (eg, exercise, socializing with people), and we need to discuss our problems like they do in those 12-step groups. We are all in recovery, and we need to support each other because we share that special insight as recovering addicts.

 

OP, You told me the story of my life.

 

Yeah mine is similar with yours. I was bullied on my looks and video games and porn was an escape from of all that. I always had crushes on girls who were facially gorgeous but never knew how to approach them. This social awkwardness lasted throughout high school and college. When I lost my virginity after hs I couldn't get it up and it was probably mainly due to the porn induced ed. The girl I was with was a virgin too and probably thought I was nervous but I had lied and told her I had sex before. Ever since then I have been with her for a long time now and have noticed that when I do PMO I would have trouble getting up. But when I lay off the PMO for a couple days then I can get it up.

What Ciceas is bang on how we should deal with negative emotions. We need to turn the negative into positive productive things rather than PMO which does give the temporary high but the low that comes after it is definitely not worth it. It only damages our health long term.

 

Our stories are similar, thanks to a hidden stash I stumbled into porn. Internet accelerated my use aswell, than started to join forums etc. Than comes the time when you start to think: "Why am I doing this?"

Right now i'm pretty successful against my fight in the addiction, I'm also planning to make a new PMO themed dark wallpaper on my desktop to remind me of that dark paradise PMO creates.

Keep on the good fight, fapstronauts.

 

yes same here, im trying to go out often and try new things instead of watching my damn PC all day long

 

hii guys, i am new here.
the first time i had access to aduct content was from my dads own laptop. that was 6 years ago.
my life has been destroyed.
i am 20 and have zero confidence.
never had a girlfriend,or a relation.
never felt love.
trying to quit.
i am actually going bald from excess dht due to fapping.
this site is my last hope.

 

My Story is also the same, i started looking at porn when i was about 12/13. It is like a loop.
I usually do excessive Sport to break this loop, but my best period was about 3 months, i wanna get rid of porn for Life .... and start living Life.

 

WOW! yeah that sounds a bit like me actually.... I hear you man.
I started discovering masturbation at 10/11. I started to use porn at 13, the only stuff that was available to me at that time (before internet) was my dad's magazine and video stash (which wasn't all that well hidden actually!)

I'm 28 next, month.... I can't believe it has taken me this long to admit to myself that it is a problem for me and to actually begin to do something about it. Fuck!

 

Good luck, man!

 

Definitely sounds familiar. I also remember feeling a need for attention and love at the time. I tried to find through PMO.

 

I don't even remember when I first saw a porn video, but there was some magazines for adults and I remember that after a period when I found on internet some porn, I would look more and more often. I think just tried to fill a hole in me, but after I started going to church and making friends I was free.

 

OP's taken the words out of my mouth.