New Journey 90day challenge -- Background Info I've decided to take the plunge, and go for the 90 day challenge. To give you all some background info... I started watching porn when I was about 12 years old... sneaking into the computer room. It was awesome. I fell in love. I've never seen anything like it! Fast forward a few years, and I got my first girlfriend... the first time we decided to have sex, I was so nervous, I couldn't get hard. This was beyond embarrassing, and put me down a dangerous road. I started resorting to porn as sort of a "make up" resolution; In a way, kind of testing myself to make sure I wasn't "broken". I would get hard for porn, no problem. Fast forward a few more years into the end of high school and into college -- I was having sex every now and then, but my erections weren't very hard -- and on many occasions I just couldn't get hard at all. It was so embarrassing, and it just resulted in me being complacent with watching more porn and just fapping -- not wanting to risk getting ED again. I mean, I used to get aroused from taking a peek at a Sports Illustrated bikini picture, what's happened!? Present day -- graduated from college -- I'm in my lower 20's and the general routine of having a full time job has made my porn addiction worse. I get home from work, bored, flip on the TV... go to my room, browse porn/fap. Watch more TV, get ready for bed and browse porn/fap again. It's even worse on the weekends. Unfortunately, I just recently got braces (at the age of 23) -- so my sex life won't be too exciting for the next 8-10 months (making this 90 day challenge even harder). I'm starting the 90 day challenge b/c it's gotten to the point where I view myself as pathetic, and my self-esteem has tanked. I'm looking forward to higher energy levels, and more confidence -- I'm also viewing this as one of the hardest things I've ever done -- wish me luck!
Hey, good decision. I'm not as old as you are, but I know your situation very very well. For a long time, porn has been my way to cool down after hard school days, and I noticed it was bad for me, so I decided to stop. The 90-day-challenge is a huge and awesome thing to do. I don't think I would make it on first attempt. Congratulations if you'll make it,and I'm sure you will! Stay strong! I recommend to you to make a banner just like most people in this forum. For me at least, it's a great thing to do, you and everybody else will see your process. Just click on one of the banners in this forum (mine for example ) and make your own one! Read my journal! Have a good time! Stay strong!
You are on the right path. I think this is really going to be a life-changing journey for you, and it's great that you've come to such a supportive website to get through it. Stay strong, we all hope the best for you!
Thank you all for the support! I know 90 days is a lot to start off with -- but I've been able to quit sporadically off and on -- usually for a few days, to a week or so. The longest I've gone recently has been 16 days. I went ahead and set my counter for 30 days, just to start. I'll keep you posted.
