About Me (First Post) and My Struggle

Hi, I'm Nick and I am fifteen years old. Don't let my age fool you, I have been struggling with PMO since 4th grade (no kidding) so I have had around five years of experience with PMO. I am an athlete, I play basketball, football and track. Since about ten years old, I have been struggling to fit in, you can imagine how a ten year old boy, that knows about the birds and the bees and much more, can be very shy around every girl he talks to or sees. Five years has passed and finally I told myself "I'm Finished". I was unaware of how difficult it was going to be and I tried to go two or three months without PMO and I was done after the first fifteen days. After that I tried many more times until I realized that I can't do this alone. I have come to this website for support and to support others. I WILL end this addiction strong and hopefully never go back. All I want is to be a normal high school guy that can look girls in their eyes without perverting their personality in mine. -Nick