Time for change..

Hey guys,

I'm a healthy 23 year old with a huge masturbation/porn addiction. Would've never considered a site like this, but recent circumstances have shown me that I need a change. At the end of last year, I started a jelqing routine. Was going good for a few months and my erection quality was through the roof. Randomly one night at the beginning of this year, my penis became unresponsive to stimulation and porn. I thought it was a one time thing but it happened again the following night. 4 months later, this issue is still hovering over me. I have been to multiple urologists and even a neurologist. Had an ultrasound done on my unit and the doc says everything is functioning like it should so he thinks my issue is purely psychological. He gave me the task of no masturbation and it is proving more difficult than I had expected. I have broken his advice on multiple occasions over the past month when I got the smallest of an erection, assuming everything was on its way back to normal. I know now that everytime I do this, it is just setting me further back.

I was recently diagnosed with depression, so that is not helping my issue at all. I have been talking with a therapist about my addicitons and he attributes all my issues to my psyche. He keeps telling me he will help make me "better," and I'm trying with all my might to belive him.

Morning wood is on and off for me... When I get it, it's not as powerful as it used to be. Maybe 80-90% erection quality. Seconds after waking up, though, it shoots back down. Shaft sensitivity has also been an issue for me. It's responsive to different temperatures and the toothpick test, but a simple touch makes me feel little to nothing.

Due to all this, I know I have to change my habits even though it will be difficult. I keep telling myself I'm going to regain my erection quality, but my depression keeps jumping in and trying to persuade me differently. Any advice appreciated as I start this long journey. I know I will get better.

Best.