I am a single guy, almost 26. I've been masturbating since I was 13 maybe. I don't know. Sometimes more sometimes less. I could quit for one year. But it came back. I always blame my older brother who molested me when I was 7. I can't erase that image from my head. Anyways. I was never successful at relationships. I've been in love 3 times. Non of them worked. I had only one girl-friend who I slept with once and never saw her again. I feel terrible. Sometimes I think I cannot connect to people. I'm also very shy and basically sometimes I have no confidence at all. I feel like my life has been wasted because of this habit. I've tried to quit this thing a million times. But, it comes back. I can't help it. Anyways, except for my love life which has been terrible so far, I don't have any other problems. I'm happy with my career and I think I have a good future. I try to think positive many times. But when I remember how lonely I am, I feel so miserable. Anyways, this is my day one. I want to accomplish a one year mission, until I find a girl-friend.
