I am Chinese so hopefully you don't mind reading my not-so-perfect English. Aged 45. No job. No girlfriend (ever!). Only 1-2 friends. Money is getting less. Short. Over-weight. Skin problem too. Watch P everyday like since high school for 30 years. M at least 2 times a day. My dick becomes so tired can't get hard now without pill. I hate myself for not being mature enough, not working hard enough, not able to acheive the goals I wanted. I start hating the world and blame my parents and others for my misery. The more I hate, the more I jump into P for escaping. Recently I can't even feel any joy watching and M anymore. It is like I have used up my quota of happiness. I found out this site last night. Suddenly I realize there are others like me who are addicted to P. Maybe this site will steer me to the right direction.
Thank you for sharing your struggles. You are not alone. I will pray right now and ask God to help and bless you.
May I suggest you to head over to the Accountability Partners section of the forum, to find someone who could help you making this easier
Welcome to the road to freedom! Your honesty with yourself and others are your first brave steps. I appreciate your honesty and your sharing your deepest thoughts. I'd suggest reading and absorbing what others have to say who have traveled far before you. Start your journal. Don't hold it in. You can do this. You are not a failure. Good luck to you!
Yes, I will start my journal. Just yesterday I didn't watch any P at all. It is actually not that hard once I understand the downsides. I will try to keep it up one day at a time. Thank you for your support!
Hello, you set out a grim picture of the way you see things just now. I think when you read some of the accomplishments of other members here you will begin to turn things around. The important thing is that you have identified a problem and have set out to confront it. I know if you read some of the helpful literature on the site you will begin to feel much more in control and ready to explore useful habits and activities. After a while I am sure you will consider changing the name you use on your profile, some day soon, to more reflect the person you would like to become. Best wishes, Tom
Tom, thank you for reading my story. You are right I tend to see things in a dark way, maybe to avoid pain, although I know no pain no gain. Right now I will go starting a journal. Hope it will get things going. Thanks again.
Nice choice my friend. I'm also starting today, you're not alone. Wish you succeed, go for it!!! All the best, Paulo