Hi all, I'm a 41 year old gay guy here. I'm looking to reboot from a porn addiction that I've probably had for decades, but has really ramped up over the past two years or so. It's basically kept me from feeling confident about meeting guys and has resulted in a severe bout of depression. So yeah, I want to reset so that I can start feeling good about myself (and my penis) again so that I'll be ready for an awesome guy.
Thanks! Here I am on Day 3 and my mood has been all over the place, from angry and depressed to optimistic about a better future. I was really good the first two days, but now images of my favorite porn scenes just pop into my head as if they are saying "Come watch me, you know you want to!" Go away, Porno people!
Good luck! I've tried to quit for a few months now and I'm only three days in but I haven't felt as optimistic as I do now before. All the people here are super helpful!
Day 4 and still going. Last night was the most difficult part so far. I had a lot of trouble sleeping. I wanted to rub one out so badly but was able to hold off. I'm still thinking of all of the porn that I used to watch. I had no idea until I read about porn addiction that I could possibly have it. But when I read about the profile of the porn addict, it all made sense. I started out masturbating when I was 13 and had more or less jerked off every day since, often multiple times a day. Porn interest started when I was about 18 or 19, but it was only magazines then and the occasional video. More of an effort was needed at that time as it involved going and finding it at the video store or a porn shop. Once the internet porn took off, I really got into it. It probably resulted in much of the undoing with my last real boyfriend, which was seven years ago. In the past couple of years, with the tube sites, I'd easily kill an hour or two each night going through numerous videos trying to find the perfect one to ejaculate to. Anyway, back to today: The good news is that I’m starting to get some really good sensation back in my penis. I had several decent erections this morning and even when it’s soft, it’s starting to feel more full than the silly putty dick that brought me here in the first place. Onward!
