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Should I count this as a relapse??

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Kristen, Sep 28, 2016.

  1. Sep 28, 2016 #1
    Kristen

    Kristen Guest

    So I have 115 days of no porn which means
    115 days of no porn videos or camming.

    Lately been feeling alot of pressure...and kinda seen this
    Coming. Someone said the wrong things to me and I got worked up, and then started reasoning with myself. It's OK if I just listen to porn. So I got a porn site up, turned my phone away from me and MO. Did his a few times. I felt guilty but I just shrugged it off and kept going with my streak since I didn't watch it. But today it happened again and I kinda glanced at the video a few times. I didn't watch it completely..it was a 60 second video, and I glanced ,about 3 times at the content....after the first O , I got bored, and the video and sounds became less appealing. So turned it off and sat there..after that i was thinking of what I should do..
    Should I start over? I felt guilty since before I wanted to do hard mode but kept MOING and also being relaxed about audio porn. T_T idk...

    If I do reset I'm still proud of myself...cause maybe it's better to focus on the relapses in the year...how far in between....i did 115 days without watching porn videos..that's huge for me. And also i didnt listen to audio porn till after the 90 days..i1f your my friend and know me well, u would probably agree, since I'm a nymphomaniac.
    I really don't wanna binge tho..cause before I thought..if I reset I can Binge out on porn till tomorrow....but I don't want to do that...glancing was to much..
    Sigh..
    What do u think?
     
    Kristen, Sep 28, 2016
    Kristen, Sep 28, 2016
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  2. Sep 28, 2016 #2
    idclip

    idclip Fapstronaut

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    As someone who has never wanted to to 'reboot' himself, nor undergone a reboot: you should abstain.

    If you have/had a real problem with P, you should definitely do without it. Use your imagination! It might sound gross to read, especially for a female, but fap thinking about your classmate, that pretty girl you saw on the bus, or a teacher, if she turns you on. Doesn't matter who's the subject, but if you have to M, do it without P.

    Last time I did it, I didn't even imagine anything, I was just focusing on my own pleasure. I guess that if that doesn't work for you, then you don't really need to M, and can rather do something else.

    All in all you're the best judge of yourself, but if you come here asking for an opinion, to me it sounds like you know you've done something you shouldn't have: otherwise you wouldn't even need to ask, right?
     
    idclip, Sep 28, 2016
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  3. Sep 28, 2016 #3
    Kristen

    Kristen Guest

    I can't get off with imagination :(
    It's impossible :(
    That's why I ended up ding audio porn I usually need something to read or hear to see to get off. Really MO is the big thing of my pornography addiction cause I can't MO without some forms of it.
     
    Kristen, Sep 28, 2016
    Kristen, Sep 28, 2016
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  4. Sep 28, 2016 #4
    SMK

    SMK Guest

    Congratulations!

    Who said u something?
    It happened with me earlier , I often had thought to MO against frustration but I never did.
    Did you do it in last 2 days?

    I know u well and also that u r a nymphomaniac. So, u dont reset coz I know u wud stick to it for few more days.U can do one thing i.e. count the number with a reference. For instance, if u watched P and MO 2 times then say (2/115). It would help u reduce the pressure. And next time try to keep numerator constant as 2 & denominator would automatically increase with days, then when it would be like (2/150), it woud ddefinitly give u an intense proud :)
    Good Luck :)
     
    SMK, Sep 28, 2016
    SMK, Sep 28, 2016
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