Hi everyone! I am new here so if I opened this thread in a wrong place I am sorry. I am a 23 years old university student and have a really big problem. I learned masturbation in very early years and still doing it everyday while watching porn. But the problem is I like to watch ONLY bdsm and femdom porns, I never like nudeness, boobs or vanilla. In past 5 years I paid for sex several times, not with a girlfriend. These experiences were terrible. When I was receiving kiss/lick I was erected but when I was started to penetrating, my penis was losing hardiness. So I was asking a handjob, its only way to ejaculate for me. But tell me how can I be in a relationship with this curse? I want to marry and make children but my self-confidence is ruined because of this. And I am avoiding to contact with girls to start a relationship. Please make me some advises or tell me what my problem is otherwise despair and loneliness will kill me. Thank you.
Welcome my brother. I think it's very brave of you to come here and admit you have a problem , that is a major step. You know you have a problem and you want help. I would suggest for you to educate yourself on your issue and why you have an addiction to porn. Go to your brain on porn website and read , they have tons of material that will help you understand you're not alone in this and there are plenty of people out there with the same addiction as you. Once you understand how porn has affected both your mind and body, you won't feel so guilty and helpless because there is a way out. Many people on here have the same issues with keeping erections and social anxiety. Don't be afraid, just take it day by day. Reading posts on here will also help you, read success stories of people who have realized and witnessed first hand the benefits of your life without porn. Keep your head up my brother ! We are here for you, we all need each other.
