hi, 33 years is my age and I had www-access since 1993. virtual/digital porn dates back to the first computer-displays used, i think, don't want to trigger, but if you google for "c64 porn pix", there's even a gallery of some of those first pix. the introduction of the www fell right into my puberty and since then I escalated from pin-up pictures (with my nylon-fetish I already had as a child, think of oedipus on steroids), to softcore pix, went on to collect all the hardcore preview-vids the sites put on the web around '96-'98, had some stolen accounts to see live-shows somewhen, was in a few relationships, still searched for videos with my favorite fetish, finally lived my my fetish-fantasies out (which where ashaming my whole life, loss of masculinity and so on), was a regular visitor to all this *tube-sites and finally escalated to paid video-chats. had some drug-experiences all the time, 'have some relief with a ritalin-prescription now. my life is totally fucked up now, my relationship is broken atm, i am collecting something like a pension for a living, my colleagues from my younger years are now researchers, Ph.D.'s, CEOs but still friends or in contact despite the "asocial barrier".
Hi phaptahedron. I've seen your Urges updates, I love their calm poetic quality - it's strange, but I felt I might be somehow defacing the thread by posting there! Welcome to the community. I'm midway through my May challenge, but after that I want to continue to 90 days. I started wanting to disassociate porn from masturbation, but I've also reached the conclusion I masturbate compulsively. I'm attempting a brain reboot. Have you thought about setting a target? It's good to have an objective in mind. It sounds like you've got a lot to work through, but have a think about what you want to get out of NoFap when you're ready to do so. In the meantime, there's a load of supportive guys on here - get stuck in!
