Hi fapstronauts, so i guess it makes sense to share my story. im 28, male white guy. Started watching porn when i was quite young, probably around the start of high school. it continued and i started staying up late many nights, this continued for many years. i luckily got a girlfriend when i was 18. we fell in love it was awesome, but for the first month or so I couldn't get hard. I thought something was wrong with me, thought about going to a doctor. then all of a sudden i was good to go one day, and we fucked many, many times. Porn kept creeping up though, throughout the relationship and I found myself fantasizing about dirty shit, I realized I had a foot fetish around 19 or so. In one way, porn did help me explore what turned me on to an extent. I didn't realize it but when we began going out I was in a reboot i guess. I believe it was also nervousness being that I was a virgin before this girl. anyways, long story slightly shorter, its been a big problem for me. A couple of years ago I heard about nofap and people who were quitting porn. I laughed but the seed was planted. About a year ago I started really trying to stop. Ive relapsed many times and I really see it as an addiction. Im an attractive young man at least I like to think so, and although I don't have a problem getting girls my confidence is lacking when it comes to getting erections. It takes a lot sometimes I have to jerk off and watch the girl lol but other times I'm good. last summer was the longest i went without porn. i went a month, and at the end of that month I met a girl and we had a lot of fun, although we just watched each other cum as I couldn't stay hard long enough for penetration. I believe I have PIED. It sucks but important to be honest. Im really looking to solve this problem, and so I am here. Theres more to my story but I figure shouldn't write too much for now. Im hoping to meet some like minded people and try to form some accountability. Its those moments of tired angry sad stressed that really make it hard not to watch porn. its like I know if I wait it will get better, I'm kind of at that point now. its really an addiction that I'm aware of but don't have the tools to stop completely. I've cut porn down to a couple times a week, although recently I've been in a binge pattern. hope I'm not rambling! thanks for listening/reading. today is day 1/start of day 2
Hi, welcome to NF. its great that you have found it and that you are trying to work through this activity. You are going to find a lot of help and a lot of support here.
Hey there Laddie, {scott term} Thank you for sharing it is a big deal for me to hear my story coming from someone else by addressing this now there will be no need t suffer as long as I did.
