my story and 60 day no MO but fail at porn,

Hey There im new in here

My story begin with my uncle colection, when i around 13 years old (now 25 Yo). he's been a such heavy porn addict that he have ton full of porn disc collection and not ashamed by it (he's not hiding it). so my curiosity callin it, and start wacthin one of he's collection and began my heavy additced porn too.

when i'm not a porn addict a lot of girl's call me cute/handsome or etc by girl who even more mature than me (i have experienced seduce by beautifull mature woman and not affected by it) and a prodigy (so my teacher say) in class especially in language class. i have the highest grade back then in english class in my school, without even study my teacher say that i should go to europe or something. but now i will say sorry to you (the reader for my bad english) pathetic af.

so time passed by as heavy porn addict after 10 years now im realise that :
-im loosing my superior language ability, cant even fast learn new language ( i try it on japanese and korean language),
- i never had any girlfriend yet
- my porn category become worst and weirder (sadist and contain blood and hit)
- my job, i achieve nothin, just go to work and have a porn in night and in saturday & sunday.
- anti social AF
- and the worst part is , i began a suicidal though

so my advice is, stop PMO as soon as possible,, if you around 13-19 stop now, dont corupct yourself

and now i began my PMO journey couple month ago, its now been 60 Day of NO PMO when i briliantly messed up it today with some porn (but no masturbation or orgasm) is that is ok ??? i dont know

so i will started it again, im not givin up

( i just want to share, its relived me some how) thanks

 

wow thank for the consideration..thats mean a lot

my strategy and i already did are :

1. go to the gym after work (3 times a week)
2. study at my campus and do cardio (running) at saturday
3. do some bussines plan with my friend on sunday
4. playin some RTS video games if i had a time/free time

just like that,, any sugestion ?

 

damn damn damn i relapse on day 80...and keep on watching that damned pixel girl again until this day

back to day 0

cause for my failure is:
- skip exercise / gym exercise
- late night sleep (cause me skip that exercise)
- fuckin youtub click bait
- less pray to god

hope i can back to reality soon,,

my P is very hurt after last MO and my eyes start blurry...



so fuckin sad , so fuckin fuckin useles, what the fuckin im doin,