Here is my Long Confession. Advice welcome, especially anyone with Depression/OCD/Anxiety/Guilt

Thor,

Thanks for sharing your story. And great to hear youve kicked your addictions.

Have you been able to adapt back into society much -- work, social support, etc?

Given your situation, im sure its very hard, but those things are vital to true healing, it would seem.

 

I guess i'm a bit lucky because of my age and the fact I am fairly fit these days. I'm able to work in construction, although I do have to be very careful about who I talk to and what I tell them about myself. The construction industry if you can hack it, is one of the few industries left where they don't ask too many questions, you basically turn up on time, do what you're told, work hard and show teamwork and initiative, if you can do that then you will fit in. It's not exactly a secret that many ex-cons find themselves in some kind of construction role. Getting a job is extremely tough where I'm from if you are a sex offender, not as bad as the USA, but over here you still have to answer the question on application forms 'do you have any unspent criminal convictions' well you might as well throw the application form in the bin if you see that question, trust me there is really no way you can sugar coat or mitigate the term 'sex offender'. You have to learn to adapt and be resourceful and also socially it can be difficult mainly due to the fact many of your old friends abandon you and want nothing to do with you, I'd say out of the 15 or so people that I used to be able to socialise with, I have 2 close friends that have supported me in moving on and getting over the past so I can live a better and more useful life. Most people don't see things that way unfortunately. I'd say the most important thing to maintaining the healing process is having a sense of purpose in life and people who support that purpose who are willing and able to see past the cracks.

 

I wonder if that stigma will ever alleviate in the future as porn addiction (thank you yourbrainonporn.com for doing God's work to get this info out there, even though Gary Wilson says he is an atheist ...) becomes more recognized as a public health issue, just as alcohol and drugs are slowly becoming to be seen. Also, due to the rise of sexting and easily accessible unregulated Internet availability with more young people and celebrities (Anthony Weiner) finding themselves on the registry.

Regardless, it's great that you have steady work and at least a couple of close friends. That in itself goes a long way.

 

Late reply but I totally agree with this (as I do with most of your comments!)

There's nothing wrong with being attracted to teenage girls, in fact, it could be viewed as a more natural response as it's when women are at their most fertile! If anything, being attracted to older women is stranger :')

Most of the girls I had one night stands with back in my single, going out 3 times a week days were 18/19.

Nothing to feel guilty about man