Thanks @fercho29. I just did 28 days, them thought mo'ing would be a good idea just to get the urges out of the way. No fantasying at all. But it led me down a slippery path. So 100% no MO this time.
Oh wow. Absolutely, I am in awe after reading your story. Such a beautiful, honest and inspiring confession. You made me feel better about myself, and gave me hope for a better future. I too want to reach a point in my life, where I can be at peace with myself. Total peace within. Very happy for you. Continue doing and spreading good. Your story has tremendous amount of power to uplift others. Best wishes.
Thank you very much @badassreturns foemyour kind words, I m happy that my message can help other Fellow Fapstronauts to succeed in this fight. It looks hard but we can win Fercho
I think @fercho29, and please correct me if I am wrong, is that you found you were addicted to this, and that was that. You were giving up. No goals for you to quit in 30, 90 days. No milestone date that you wanted to be clean for. You changed your mindset, you hated this addiction and you got bad ass on it. Which is truly admirable. Well done @fercho29. Stories like yours tell us there is hope for all of us on here.
Hello. Could you share your withdrawal process ? I feel weak and very depressed. Am i on withdrawal ?
Yes @solez , this is a typical withdrawal symptom When I started my reboot I was so moody ! My mood was a roller coaster, going from excitement to depression in seconds I was in a business meeting one day in front of 20 people and I started screaming on a guy who did something wrong I could not stop and kept escalating, everybody was staring at me Finally I left the room and went to the restroom, where I started crying Be prepared for this Find activities you love, so you can do this when you get sad It also helps you to stay occupied and fill the time you used to PMO with something positive Good luck Fercho
@solez , it took me more than that , but every case is different. In my case after 5-6 weeks the mood swings started to diminish, but I got still some feelings of sadness or depression even in the 5th month You need to be very patient, this is a long race until the end line Fercho
Wow @fercho29, I read your whole story and I can say it really touched me. It is incredible that you reached 2 years PMO-Free. So many struggles. You are giving me courage to go through my urges. I didn't believe there were people with so many more problems than me. Bravo! Good luck with your rebooting journey!
@fercho29 I wanted to thank you. I can relate to many of the feelings evoked in your story, and I'm going to take drastic action and commitment to make it a final quit. Going to start the Academy here, my days with a PMO problem are over. They are already. I already know it in my mind. That's it.
Today I had some problems at work. Big arguments with some clients, I will be probably losing one big client for good. In the past, these type of stressed situations used to trigger me big urges, and a big binge of PMO, escorts and hook ups. Ending later on much more sad and depressed. This time, although I got very upset and kind of frustrated for this failure, I did not allow myself to "auto punish" myself as I used to. I got back to my house early, took my bike and rode to the beach. I did a meditation session using Headspace while laying on the sand, and did my Tai Chi practice while the sun was setting on the horizon (symbolically, because in Miami the sun does not set on the ocean, lol). The fresh breeze of the ocean, the smell of the sea, and the meditation brought me back to the present. I stop my mind before it started "wondering away", fabricating deceitful fantasies that lead me nowhere. I repeated myself once again my mantra: " To know if something is good or bad for me, I just need to reply two simple questions: Where will this lead me? And How it will leave me?". The answer was simple: " No matter how bad was my day, or how much problems I may have, nothing deserve my relapse. There is no better place than the present, in spite of some days being better than others". Keep on fighting Fercho
I want to share with you this very interesting video by Mark Queppet, one of the creators of NoFap Academy. It is very revealing the fact that the instinct of dominance of the male specie lead us to porn and sexual addictions: Fercho
Thanks, great video. Keep writing about those days if you want. It also reminds us how low it is possible to go if we don't confront it face to face and defeat it. I have read your previous posts here and there too, they move me everytime because people don't usually talk this honest about themselves. To be honest your story is kind of dramatic. It's those kinds of stories we might only get to see in movies. People don't usually go down that low or if they do, they rarely succeed to get up and turn everything around. thanks again for writing your story
Fercho, when I first saw your post a few months ago, I told you to write a book about it and that your shit was dark. I decided to translate your post and implement it in my book. If you don't mind, I will do that with some other posts of yours as well - referring to you as the author, a member of the community, of course.
Sure @Lyart , no problem Which book is this? Are you writing a book about PMO? Is it online? I would love to read it Thank you Fercho