New to the site, not new to trying to quit.

I am brand new to nofap. I am 34 years old. I have been masturbating probably since the age of 8 or 9. I have been watching porn regularly probably since age 11. I have tried to stop several hundred times, with no success. I am hoping this time is different.

I am married with 2 kids, and hope that my stopping will bring me closer to my wife and family. I am also hoping that it will help me to concentrate more on my goals. I am glad that there is a community out there that I can be a part of. Hopefully this will do the trick.

 

Thanks, Clip. Unfortunately, I haven't told my wife about this recent effort yet. I've told her in the past that I have a porn addiction, but telling her made me feel weak. I know she still suspects I have a problem. She doesn't say anything, but I can tell.

So far I am 4 days free. It's tough, but not so bad that I don't feel I can manage it. I know it usually takes a week before I really start to feel it. We'll see.

 

Wow! congrats Imurphy. 41-50 days seems like an eternity to me when it comes to watching porn or masturbating. The longest I've ever gone was 30 days, and I really had to use most of my energy to get there.

Thanks so much for the encouragement. I hope you're right about the 2 week mark. I don't remember how it feels not to masturbate for so long, but i'm really trying to kick this thing for good.

 

Good luck Johno. I've been clean 7 days now, and considering how long I've been at it, if I can do it anyone can. As far as I'm concerned, we're in this together bro!

 

Another day down. Yesterday morning and afternoon was rough. I wasn't close to masturbating though. What worries me more is that i'm having thoughts of acting out my fantasies, which is a bad thing because my fantasies don't involve my wife. However, I didn't break. Today seems much easier than yesterday.

 

You got that right Once&4all. FOCUS! It feels good so far.

 

Made it to the weekend. Had relations with the Mrs yesterday, which relieved a lot of stress. Hope I didn't get her pregnant. It was pretty intense.

So far I feel like refraining from P and M has made me feel stronger and more excitable. I do feel a slight increase in sensitivity, but that may just be in my head. I also feel closer to my wife, or the need to be closer to her. I am excited about this journey. I am feeling like I will be able to maintain my self control. However, its only been a little over a week, so we'll see.

 

Thanks for the support Saserman. I wish you the best of luck as well. How are you feeling at day 13?

 

Woke up this morning feeling good that I made it through another fap-free day. Can't complain. Self-control is a good thing. I feel like I can go all the way this time. No real desire to watch P or M yet. I get very excited, but its for a real person. Unfortunately, my desires are still targeted at everything walking down the street, but i'm hoping those thought will subside, and they can be channeled where they belong.

 

So, this morning after 11 days clean, I relapsed. The messed up thing is I had the will not to. It wasn't even an option, but I chose to do it anyway. I had a really bad day yesterday. I messed up and procrastinated on something really important (once again), and it may cost me everything I've worked so hard for over the years. I couldn't take the stress, and wanted to feel good, so I logged on and started watching porn. I wasn't even turned on. After almost 2 weeks of reading this board and seeing everyone's struggle, and having the newly acquired knowledge of the negative effects of porn, how could I be. But I made my self get turned on, and I squeezed out a mildly pleasurable O. I feel really low and exhausted right now, but I'm going to get back to my goal of no fapping. I can't wait to see my counter read 11 days again at this point. Keep me in your thought and prayers ya'll.

 

Extreme pressure and high stress are my triggers. What do I do?

 

Nobodyspecial,Troubled:Student and Once&4aall, thanks for the support guys. I'm trying, but as you all know, its a hard road. Please update me on your progress guys, as it helps me to know there are people out there making it.