Hey everybody, this is my first post so forgive me if I'm posting in the wrong section. I'm 23 and I've been watching porn habitually the last 13 years. I'm trying the 100 day challenge but finding it a great difficulty. I've never actually had a girlfriend but my erotic encounters have been more sought between several prostitutes, married women, and even a man but that was purely experimental. I'm fairly attractive and from a well-to-do upbringing but I feel very dissociated and distant around women. I just feel more than out of character but out of any sort of originality or thoughtfulness around others. Just looking for some words of encouragement.
Ok first of all what are looking for? One word of advice stay away from the married women and prostitutes. Way too dangerous.
I never really sought out married women, they always found me. Obviously, I can't say the same for prostitutes although I've only ever been with maybe 3 or 4. But besides this, I don't know if my sexual fluidity is distorted from so much PMO from such a young age. The main reason reason I posted this thread was looking for some personal experiences from others because this kind of sodomy or deviancy or whatever you may call it has been the normalcy for me for so long I just feel so far from a healthy sexual relationship. I also have always had a great fear of intimacy and PMO has definitely set me back from overcoming it, although I take all accountability on my own behalf.
I am a married man myself. A healthy sexual relationship should go hand in hand with a healthy relationship with your significant other. You should seek a relationship where you and your SO care for each other and take care of each other; respect each other and love each other. The sexual side of things is secondary imo. Your use of prostitutes and flings with married women are not healthy and do indeed reflect a distorted approach to sexuality.