Psychological Distress

Hey everybody, this is my first post so forgive me if I'm posting in the wrong section. I'm 23 and I've been watching porn habitually the last 13 years. I'm trying the 100 day challenge but finding it a great difficulty. I've never actually had a girlfriend but my erotic encounters have been more sought between several prostitutes, married women, and even a man but that was purely experimental. I'm fairly attractive and from a well-to-do upbringing but I feel very dissociated and distant around women. I just feel more than out of character but out of any sort of originality or thoughtfulness around others. Just looking for some words of encouragement.

 

I never really sought out married women, they always found me. Obviously, I can't say the same for prostitutes although I've only ever been with maybe 3 or 4. But besides this, I don't know if my sexual fluidity is distorted from so much PMO from such a young age. The main reason reason I posted this thread was looking for some personal experiences from others because this kind of sodomy or deviancy or whatever you may call it has been the normalcy for me for so long I just feel so far from a healthy sexual relationship. I also have always had a great fear of intimacy and PMO has definitely set me back from overcoming it, although I take all accountability on my own behalf.

 

No, just pornography and steady relapsing.