what about headache? i have a very strong pressure in my head. the pressure is getting stronger every day. hard mode day15 (first try ever)
I have had this same pressure too. Mostly headaches in the front part of my head. It feels like my brain is caving in sometimes or theres constant pressure near my forehead.
yes in the forehead - like a knot there. i went to the neurologist today. they are going to scan my brain. i had this symptoms before starting hard mode. but not so strong.
it would be cool to see an image of your brain while on porn and then, 30,60, 90 + days out .. i've never had the symptoms until now. I definitely have felt less focused and these headaches have been more frequent.
dont know if this is because of the withdrawal. i used lots of wheed and alcohol between 20 years age and 28 years age. it is possible that i damaged something during this period. for sure the doc will see the damage if there is one. if not this is a mental/psychic problem.
Hey there brainfit. Thanks for opening this thread. In my case, the withdrawal symptoms started on the 7th day when I first started and on the 10th day when I relapsed. For me, I experience difficulty in sleeping. I'm not a morning person and I usually sleep between 11-12 MN. It's really frustrating, but lately, I get to sleep around 2-3 AM. This leads to mild headaches. There's also this certain mental "cloudiness". There are also episodes of anger and frustration. On the physical aspect, there's this being "leaky". It adds to the frustration that you can't fap. Really a test of self-control. On the upside, I am able to connect with myself more, despite the mental "cloudiness". It made me realize my real problems and face these issues. I personally think that there's a reason why we abused PMO that led us here. I'm still dealing with mine, and it's better not to run away from this. I just wanna place a "neutral" point here. It's about the random boners. I mean, yeah, it can be frustrating that you can't deal with it the "usual" way. But on the other hand, it's a normal response of the body to perfuse blood and bring nutrients to the abused organ. Besides, I think there comes an age when boner frequency will decrease significantly. So better appreciate it now than hate it. Just my opinion, so yeah. I also read in this forum a variety of opinions about fapping. I know we all have various reasons for being here and also not-so-different goals. For me, I don't think there's something wrong with masturbation. It's a normal process. What's wrong is that we use porn with it or use it as an outlet to relieve stress/tension regularly. I am a christian and I believe sexuality is one our many aspects as a human being. Fapping shouldn't be abused and used as a way to constantly deal with stress/tension. Anyway, that's what I think... Anyway, I'm still on the withdrawal process because of the relapse. Really difficult, but I know it's all worth it. The benefits are worth it after the withdrawal - being more confident, more receptive during interactions, and just a clearer way of seeing things. There's so much more. It's a process of self-discovery. Let's press on and move forward. What's on the other side is worth sacrificing for.
hi adriatik, i want to make a comparison here. i have a very good friend who is using wheed once in a month. he can control himself. so he has his fun and enjoys this days. for him it is like drinking a good bottle of wine. but if you use wheed everyday it will destroy your life. i did this for 8 years. i stopped it and i studied. without stopping druguse this would never be possible. after stopping druguse my sexaddiction started. so now i have realized that i am a kind of person who is weak and at risk to addiction (no matter which form). i had fast bikes for several years - because speed is also like a drug. so it is with masturbation. there was a time in past i watched porn on dvd once in a month. it was ok i had the control. it was not an addiction. the problem is if something gets obsessive. i am in a hard mode since 16 days. the point is i can see my behavior before starting this abstinence more clearly. i think it is all about controlling the urges!
Yep. Like I lost some sort of horrible best friend, that I was simply used to. >_> But, "this too shall pass."
Hi everyone for me withdrawal is a mix of insomnia. Late evenings and sometimes waking up early I mean really early for no reason. I also experience that point you just can't fight it anymore and relapse. . Just nothing can make you happy or take your mind off porn. Now I have been fighting this for a while with mixed results. I find the debate on maturbation to be very interesting. I was raised as a strong Catholic but I see myself as a Christian not affiliated with any religion. Porn is the problem we wouldn't be here if there was no porn. I believe if one chooses to masturbate in healthy way and can use that to keep away from porn I do not see a problem. Porn is the real addiction. Some here believe you must quit both to really recover or Masturbation is a sin or unhealthy. I disagree. Masturbation the jury is not out on the healthiness I agree that it's better to live nofap however if Masturbation keeps you away from porn you are being healthier than you were. Masturbation is a sin. . Well that is personal belief. If for you it is, then don't do it. .The guilt will not help your recovery. Finally for some baby steps are required and fighting porn and Masturbation at once can be all too much. So try healthy Masturbation allow your brain to taper off. . Then once porn is no longer an issue you can focus on Masturbation. Baby steps guys. . Nothing happens over night. This is recovery not abstinence! Finally one more thing. I have tried everything to fight this addiction for 4 years. From straight ice cold showers for a month to mediation (20 min everyday) to exercise everyday. They all help alot. But the best thing and the one has finally changed things for myself is learning to Love Myself. I highly recommend reading love yourself like your life depends on it. Do it fully commit within a month you will notice the changes. This is recovery it will take time. Thanks for reading.
Hey there otto. Yeah, feeding that desire is harmful. Sometimes we think "Hmmmm... I'll just watch and do it once then never again". Then obsession comes in then next thing we know, we're drowning. In my opinion, controlling the urges is one way. For me, I've learned that urges won't go away that easily, but we can choose how to respond to it. After the relapse, the urges came back in a different way. I tell myself "I have a choice. Relapse is not worth it. Doing it will only make it worse." Understanding ourselves and why we abused PMO is part of the recovery process. Let's continue moving forward!
Hello hellfire2. Thank you for posting this. I relate with the mix of insomnia, even with the experience of just giving in to relapse. I relapsed recently and failed, but I decided to get back up and move on. What you said is true. Learning to love yourself is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself. After my relapse, I had to limit self-pity and instead forgive myself for the failure. Recovery will not happen overnight - it's also something I accepted. It's an ongoing process.
adriatik first of all i really accepted that i am ill and there is a disease called pornaddiction. reading stuff here helps me. i can see how many people are struggling with this. how many young boys. i am 36 years old. the whole internet thing came about 15 years ago. the younger generation is born into this shit. before internet i had no problems with porn. i had a little porn collection and was fapping twice a month. the offer in the internet killed me. so lets fight against the pornmonster!
I've known something was wrong since 2009... For a long time I couldn't even climax or get hard without porn. After taking long breaks I found that thought can make me hard again. I think once I am in a sexually healthy place I will be able to masturbate but until then I must abstain. This is going to be a long rough road but I am committed to living a full, real, and exciting sexual life again. I meet with a therapist once per week, and I hope to gain motivation from this site while sharing my successes as well. We got this!!
Withdrawals symptoms for me are extreme mood swings and depression. They can be tough but nothing compares to the benefits. Worse withdrawal symptom...lack of sex drive. I am at day 16 and I have zero. I feel neither male or female. It's like having no genitals. Nothing in real life makes me horny! But of course it will return to normal. Right now I can focus more on the benefits than the withdrawal symptoms. Sure some thoughts pop in and out from time to time but as the benefits kick in. Man, it's a whole new world. Enjoy it
I don't know what others have felt, but for me the constant battle within self (like brushing off porn thoughts) can really upset my digestive system. I mean I'll be feeling kind of ill and sometimes as if a metal ball is in my stomach/acidity and related things. It could be a sort of extra effect of anxiety but I don't remember having anxiety and being scared to even talk to people until I kind of started to quit PMO cycle about a year ago. Maybe I was just too numb to realize it before this you know. Since stomach gets upset, it affects my schedule and brings me into overthinking mode which is in itself kind of a vicious cycle. Downright my main symptom while trying to quit. What do you guys think? How to I get myself to calm down/concentrate on other things during this time(cause once it gets too much, relapse may occur)?
I have been feeling horny and having urges as I reach my target number of days. I almost M-btd but somehow controlled my hands. Is this natural to get this anxious as you get closer to your target?
I'm a five days into my third try...and had gone a week before. For me the hardest part has been fending off the overwhelming urges. Some days have been okay, while others it seems non stop. I've had some mood swings...but so far it's been this 'anxious' feeling accompanied by fantasies/bad thoughts flooding my brain.
