Hi everyone. First id like to say that im shockened by the scale of the effects of porn and masturbation. I mean in general and personally. I allways new that there were sex/porn addicts, but i allways tought its like 0.00001 % problem. During the past week ive realised how wrong i was. Im 22-year old guy from Finland, with history of porn use for over 10 years now. I am also addicted to cannabis, and for me porn and pot link together very closely. Ive been suffering quite serious depression and anxiousness for over 4 years now. My life is kind of a roller coaster. There are good times, and then.. well, there are bad times. When im in a good phase, i can allmost function like a healthy person. I can do my burger flipping job and do my school work (i study journalism). But when the bad phase hits on, i basically live on my sofa and do three things: smoke pot, watch porn and masturbate. Of course, this "medication" only makes me feel worse, in terms of unbearable shame, guilt, loniless and just feeling empty as hell. Ive allways had a lot of friends, and i go to therapy. Im actually very social when im in "good phase". I enjoy going out, seeing and talking to people. Ive had many girlfriends, and i know many girls are into me (not trying to boast). Ive had a lot of problems enjoying sex with girls. Either i havent been able to get an erection at all, or it has been very difficult to maintain. Also there this general feeling of akwardness when im close to someone, it just doesnt feel natural, and my only pleasure is when i cum. Its not just about sex though. I just feel "wrong" when its just me and a girl. Everytime when i have a crush it first feels like the one girl is the one ive been dreaming about, but when she actually shows any interest on me, its like turn off. I suddenly spot all these things "wrong" about her. Just stupid things like spot on her forehead, or the way she talks. My brain just tells me how "unperfect" she is, and i suddenly want to take distance. I didnt realise how much PMO can affect you until i found yourbrainonporn.com. I feel very hopefull now, and havent been smoking pot or PMOing for one week now! Id really like to have meaningful relationship with someone and enjoy real sex someday. Kinda long post but had to let it out
Porn is horrible... it's not just with regards to sex, but it's everywhere.... the idea of falsification. Fast food paints a picture of delicious food that they advertise as healthy: obesity. Alcohol commercials picture bros drinking and having an awesome time: liver poisoning/die young. Militaries have commercials that honor soldiers who serve their country: "isolated events" North Korea propoganda in favor of Kim Jong Un as a divine leader: starvation, and isolation, and sickness, disease, poverty, lack of freedom, death at every corner unless you kiss his feet. You name it, and it can be falsified and propogandized to induce chemicals in your brain. Either for good, or for bad.... now how do we know which one is which?
