Right. I hope you are still doing well bro, despite the job. Wishing the best of luck to you on finding a new job.
Thank you so much I'm actually gonna go part time where I am now and I've got 2 other places I used to work that weren't so bad offering me shifts so I'm feeling much better I've got some options
Day 23 So by the way, this is actually my record. I've always relapsed by now but I am less tempted now than ever before this time. I'm not too concerned about numbers though so this isn't really a big deal to me. I want to never watch porn or masturbate again. I was going to update my journal yesterday but all I was going to say was how uneventful things have been lately. That has changed drastically since this morning. So..... that girl who I gave my number to last week actually freakin texted me and we are now going out to eat and going to get ice cream with each other tomorrow. You have no idea how much in shock I was. She texted me at first about going to the gym together but said how she couldn't go until July because she was about to be out of town for awhile after this week. Well I didn't want to wait that long to see her again so I just went for it and I asked her if she wanted to hangout tomorrow and to my surprise she said yes. I'm actually super nervous because this is my first date in like 10 months and this girl is incredibly beautiful and smart. Whenever we worked together though she's always made me feel relaxed and just not worried at all so I think that's how things will continue to be. This whole experience with nofap has been SO crazy. I'm really wondering if all of these insane improvements in my attitude, confidence, and just overall life have been just from not masturbating anymore. I actually heard of nofap years ago before I ever went to college and thought it was absolutely retarded. I was so wrong. I thought there was no way how it could "change your life". PMO was the root cause to a lot of issues in my life I believe and since quitting PMO it's like I'm finally discovering who I really am. I still am socially awkward alot because that's just who I am honestly. I'm starting to realize that it is not because something is wrong with me and because of that I've become way more social even if I am slightly odd. People just like someone who is positive and happy. There is not enough of that in the world anymore. I also still find myself worrying about my future in terms of my career but I'm still applying for jobs and I've always had a good work ethic so I think it is just a matter of time and patience. Thank you to everyone who has supported me on this site. I truly am grateful that I can come here and share my experiences and really hope this helps others out there. Stay awesome guys!
Another great post and I'm very happy for you regarding your upcoming date! That's awesome! Relax and enjoy each other's company.
Day 24 Thanks guys again for the support! The night went good I guess and we still got along really well like we always have. We really just talked the whole night and not much else happened. I kind of get the feeling that she may only like me as a friend and have no further interest but I can't say for sure. When I dropped her back off at her house all that happened was she immediately gave me a hug, told me she had a lot of fun and got out of the car and left. She brought up hanging out again sometime though. Regardless, I still enjoyed hanging out with her tonight and still am feeling good. I just honestly have zero clue what to do next. Would like to see her again but don't really know how to go about doing it. I hate texting girls because it can so easily turn into a game.
Sometimes girls play games sure but sometimes we can over think things Just text her and then forget about it if she replies great if not don't worry about it. Good luck!
Thanks man, I've actually been told by one of my best friends before that overthinking is probably is one of my worst habits so that's going to be a problem I'll have to try to eliminate now.
I completely agree with @yugowolf1991 ,shut your brain down for this particular scenario. Give her time, space, whatever. She already knows you're interested, but just don't come off as desperate. To quote the awesome movie, "Super Troopers", Chief Grady tells O'hagen, "Desperation is a stinky cologne." However, if things do move forward, make sure she knows what you want and that you're really into her. Don't get stuck in the "Friend Zone." Be assertive, but cool about it. Unless, of course, you only want to be friends with this girl.
And if it did come to just being friends always remember girls always have other friends never burn all your bridges a lesson I've learned the hard way
Hahaha, absolutely, brother! I've burned many a bridge regarding work and jobs, but I never gave a fuck. I'll just rebuild that mother fucker. Chicks are a whole, different story; and beautiful one's at that!
Haha, thanks guys! Yeah I'm definitely not wanting to be just friends with this girl but if things didn't work out I honestly would be okay with being friends still but that rarely works out. We'll see how it continues to go. The last thing I want to do is obsess over a girl so I'm probably going to avoid mentioning her for awhile in my post since I don't want this thing to become too big of a deal that I start relying on it to be happy.
Day 26 So life is still going pretty good and I'm not having any urges whatsoever to watch porn. However, some thoughts and worries about my future career keep creeping in. I keep trying to downplay these concerns of mine about my future but it really is in my head constantly. I find myself being at my happiest when I'm out interacting and connecting with other people or volunteering at church. I got home today after working all day at church and I really just hate being here and I just want to work some more. When I was in school I would work on average probably about 12 hours a day, even on weekends because I like getting stuff done. I want to work on my own projects and continue to be creative but I'm very uninspired working here at home. I'm really hoping I can find a job soon or may decide to go back to school for a bachelors degree, despite my instructors at school telling me I should go ahead and apply for jobs because they thought I was already skilled enough. Really don't want any debt though. Also I would be lying if I said I haven't considered changing majors but that may be just because I have been so uninspired to create lately due to being at home.
Nofap will do that to you make you strive for more and make you question what your doing etc. It's a good thing your thinking ahead as long as you don't let it stress you out!
