LAST MEN STANDING FOREVER CHALLENGE daily check in

I relapsed this morning. I even watched porn. Even though it was only half a minute; i'm sick of it!
New try!

 

Gonna give it a try. Felt bad and PMO'ed, felt worse after and PMO'ed again. I'm sick of it.

 

Keep strong!

 

OK - Great! But edging is so risky.

 

I know. I try not to but sometimes like in the morning my hand just goes there.

 

Day 6 Challenge Check in
Nearly a week. Urges have not left me. Trying to surf them!

 

Please add me.

 

Check in day 8. I honestly cant remember last time i did last 8 days. Feeling more tired than i used to, but I think that will change after a while without PMO.

Had some problems today. Starting stalking a girl, because I thought I could handle it but man... I cant do that. I have kinda realized I cant trust myself in this. I must focus..

 

Day 25 of 365 noon check in.
Rough morning been getting morning wood at 110% which gets uncomfortable and somewhat painful before it goes away. The addict part of my brain seems to be adapting to my tactics and trying new tricks and I find myself trying to rationalize just MO but stop myself in a few seconds. Feelings of loneliness, sadness, anxiety are here and not going anywhere but coping with them.

5 more days until my first 30 day streak so trying to stay strong. Leaving the house all day today to visit family so there shouldn't be any risk of relapse for the rest of the day.

 

Brother resist it. Bad days are part of life. We can do reboot, recover but bad days will be always part of life. I still have them at day 174. Resist at the lies if your mind that you need pmo in these days. No accept there are beautiful days and other are not. For urges I try to do something simple and pleasant as a walk in the nature

 

Don’t I know it.

 

Made it through today but several challenges. Feeling kind of blue. I’m just so tired of battling my insecurities. P and other issues of self worth. Thinking, if my wife of 45 years could rewind she would choose someone different.

 

Survived another.

 

Doing ok

 

41 days
This afternoon, my two business friends asked me out to dinner. I made an excuse to refuse them. Yes, after this crazy May this year - crazy about pornography and masturbation. I almost rejected all social activities. Yes, I don't want to meet other people. It makes me feel stressed. I'm going to be upset. This will make me turn to pornography again.
I'd better be careful. With the long absence from PMO, I think things will get better.
In short, I feel frustrated that I can't participate in social activities. But this may be the safest thing to do.
Bless myself and bless you

 

Day 5! Keep buggering on!

 

Day 2 today feeling good.