Hey everyone, sorry for the lack of posting, I was moving and internet wasn't set up for a few days! Luckily, I resisted all urges and am going strong! Day 23!
Perhaps read some journals, peak through the site, reveal some testimonies of yourself,read there testimony, feel there pain warn there trust pray that God will direct anguish and worry away live fearless hope filled lives. If anyone needs or wants first hand 1 to 1 conversation I am open on pg 1 my WhatsApp info is there just ask and I will help with what ever comes up God bless.
Remember, temptation is not sin! We will all be tempted, keep yourself from following through. Paul reminds us. Run from sexual sin! No other sin so clearly affects the body as this one does. For sexual immorality is a sin against your own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18 Lets continue to enncourage one another, keep our eyes on Jesus and our thoughts holy. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ 2 Corinthians 10:5 Evening check in God bless everyone have an awesome week check in morning time
Day 58. I was watching a tv show with some friends and a few very visual sex scenes and lots of nudity came up throughout the show. Should of figured when I saw the HBO logo. Anyways once I got home I have had an intense desire to MO the rest of the day. it is strange because I didn't get an erection during the show or during the desire because I'm probably still in flat line. It is like my body and brain were at conflict with this intense desire to masturbate but the body wouldn't function. Anyways hoping a night rest in a few will help prevent any relapses. As I'm closing in to my 90 to 100 day hard mode goal, I'm trying to decide how to continue afterwards. 1) Although part of me says to continue hard mode, I fear I will succumb to PMO if I start continue this path soon after my reboot. I can continue as long as possible but I know that if I relapse, I will relapse big time and probably undo all my progress. Not only that but this hard mode has really f-ed up my motivation and productivity. I tend to procrastinate a bit more and despite the brain fog lifting and more time I tend to overeat or waste time playing games to distract myself from porn and prevent a relapse. 2) I am having a hard time with the concept of dating as I'm still in the trenches of a bitter divorce and I already feel like I'm betraying my kids despite the fact that it was a hostile family environment when we were living in the same house because of the arguing. Who knows in the next 40 to 50 days I may meet someone and this may be an option. 3) I have been pondering just abstaining from porn with occasional MO once per week or two weeks but I'm pretty sure I'll fall victim to the chaser effect. This is after my 100+ day but will try to avoid it as long as possible. Still the least favorable option and only a last resort to prevent a relapse after my reboot. What are your thoughts?
I think you did the right thing sir yeah you can't run away from the world do you have to immerse yourself in it eventually but that also means you have to make the right choices and just remember God's Got Your Back God's got a different design for you, me and my wife said naked in a bathtub tonight we both know we're not going to have sex is that hard absolutely is it harder than watching it on TV? I think so I digress a deal is a deal and you have to follow through with it no matter how hard so the only person you're cheating if you do that is yourself remember that and that God is watching God bless
I think you did the right thing sir yeahyou can't run awayfrom the world doyou have to immerseyourself in it eventually but that also means you have to make the right choices and just remember God's Got Your Back God's got a different design for you, me and my wife saidnaked in a bathtub tonight we both know we're not going to have sex is that hard absolutely is it harder than watching it on TV? I think so I digress a deal is a deal and you have to follow through with it no matter how hard so the only person you're cheating if you do that is yourself remember that and that God is watching God bless