So yeah, i finally almost 2 months. I never dreamed to go this far when the last time i fully commited to reboot was 6 years ago and keep falling because my ex keeps teasing me with sexting and topless photos(we have long distance relationship, so we can't make love). -I repair my relationship with my 2nd ex -I repair my relationship with everyone, including the one i hate -Workout everyday, 5 km jogging/run per day -I finally brave enough to talk with girl -I want intimacy with girl, not just sex, i want affection, i want to cuddle - semen leakage still happens, but not often like in week 5-6 -I concentrate on work and money, because i love you sentence wont make my future wife stomach full -Talk more to my father -Avoiding sex jokes or erotica -Sexy images are enemies -Rarely browse Twitter and Instagram, eat Quota, filter is too lenient -Flatline sometimes come, suicidal thinking is one thing i hate the most I plan to marry in 2-3 years from now. So i wont go back to P or M. If i want to M, my future wife Will M-ing me. Only real sex. No image, No video. ONLY REAL SEX ALLOWED This will be my lifestyle, otw 90 days! HARDMODE
Congrats man! This is huge. Quick note. The suicidal thinking has been something I also had a challenge with before until my friend gave me a new insight into it. I have a wise friend and I asked if he ever feels like killing himself, he said yes in the same way when something bad happens in a room and you want to leave the room, its natural when life doest go your way you feel the answer is to check out - but its not a real thread it is just a childish escape mechanism I learned from childhood to run from problems.
one of flatline symptomps are suicidal thinking. After a day of suicidal thinking, i am happy and a hard morning wood. So, i just adapt to it even tought that's bitter