Hello guys, sorry for the long post but I gotta get this off my heart cause I have been keeping it in for decades. If you don't want to read all just skip to the end of my post where I will post questions regarding nofap. Success Stories Motivation I have seen so many stories of success here that inspired me to go on a nofap streak. I have heard of nofap a long time ago but I couldn't stick to it for long. My longest streak was 17 days (but with edging and porn). I would usually relapse after some stressful situation or event. Not happy with my life This is the rare time I am honest with something like this. I am not happy with my life at all. When I say everything I mean everything, business, women, family relationships etc. I just feel like my life should be more quality than it is. I don't wanna sound arrogant but I look better than 99.9% of the people (I will leave the images), I was always one of the best students in the school, all of the teachers spoke highly of my intelligence and capacity to overcome things. I have a lot of skills in various areas but somehow my life just plain sucks. Woman attraction Even though I am good looking and have great sense of humor I just fail at attracting women. I don't know why but every woman that I encounter looks interested in the first couple of seconds but as soon as she gets close to me I feel like she is being repelled (without me even saying a word). I would regularly get flaked on, ghosted etc. and then see that very same girl with some guy that is totally out of shape, has no money, is decently stupid and so on. Don't get me wrong, I don't wanna offend anybody but those are just facts. I would regularly see guys who are like 3 or 4 out of 10 get girls that are 10/10 and those girls are head over heels into them while I struggle just setting a date. Reading the stuff here I suppose that maybe the cause of my unattractiveness is the fact that I fapped a lot for the last 15 years (sometimes like 5 or 6 times a day). Is it possible that this may be the case for me? That maybe those other guys don't fap or fap very very rarely so girls find them more attractive than me? Business Even though I have enough money to live I am not happy with my finances because I think I deserve more having the skills I have. But somehow whenever I try to do something either the doors get closed right in front of my face, something unpredicted happens etc. It feels like anything I do is doomed. And I see people with less skill just rocking it and killing it hard despite their lack of skill or knowledge. Withdraval Yesterday I decided to quit fap, porn, edging, basically anything to do with fap. Most of the time I broke nofap streak was because I looked porn. It was just a "peek" but sometimes peek turned into ejaculation. So yesterday I decided to quit it for good. I deleted my facebook and instagram so I can't look big titted models and shit. I didn't enter any porn site for a whole day (which is the first time in the last 15 years). I didn't even touch my tool. And can I say that yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I was stuck in home. I couldn't answer my phone, I was nailed to bed unable to get up. My head was hurting so bad (and still is today), my whole body was shaking and I was sweating even from getting up. Emotions were switching up in a matter of seconds. I would feel anxious at one moment, then enraged, then depressed and so on. I would tell myself that I am worse than a drug addict, that I was weak because I couldn't go a day without fucking porn. I feel so worthless and weak because of that fact. I don't remember struggling hard with anything like with quitting porn. I just hope this stops soon because I feel so bad that I think I can pass out at any moment. Still I refuse to take a look at porn or even touch the tool. Women I have read so much stories of nofap benefits and the ones that caught my eyes are the women attraction ones. I know that it may sound superficial but I really want to attract more high quality women. That's a natural need of a man. I really feel like I deserve way more of my dating life. I'm telling you again I would see guys way below average getting dimes to fall in love with them willing to leave their families and change their whole lives for them and I can't even get a date unless a woman has really really nothing else to do. It is so frustrating. Conclusion So the bottom line is I really want to change my life for good. I think this addiction si making me weak and unworthy. Every time I relapse I feel like "why have I done this", "I didn't really need to do this again" and so. I really hope that nofap changes some areas of my life because I really want a better life. My questions: 1) Do you really think that nofap is killing success in every area of my life even though I am working hard on improving? 2) Do you think women I encounter sense that I am a hard fapper and that just instantly kills my attraction? 3) Do you think nofap is making me sabotage myself in business? Making me unconsciously do things that appear good but actually give no results later? 4) Are these severe withdraval symptoms normal when you decide to quit PMO? 5) Do you have any advice on how to not give into temptation of peeking into porn and ejaculating afterwards when I feel the urge? Any advice is welcome because I really want to get over this addiction. Thank you for your time.
Hi mate, Welcome to here and thank you for sharing your story with us. You look great, I'm bet you must have been working hard to maintain such a great physique. It tells me you are disciplined and that's a great attribute. I hear you saying that life is treating you unfair, that you think you deserve much more from life. In your story I sense feelings of shame, guilt, fear, desire and anger and resentment. This is called 'destructive energy' and human beings, (especially women) are very sensitive for sensing this energy. Energy is very powerful and always will attract the same energy in vorm of people, situations and events. If you think this is bullshit, then please forgive me and ignore what i just have mentioned. If what I'm saying is making sense to you , i advise you to look up into ' Map of Consciousness' by David. R. Hawinks. And start inner work to get you where you want to be. I 'm sure your questions will be answered by someone else here, but it is always good to remember that every question is answered from the energy that resonates with you. If you are in touch with that part of you which is joyful and peaceful then your questions will be answered differently then when you re in touch with that part that is in anger and resentment The beauty that you see in 'the other' , is always and nothing else , then a reflection of your own beauty ;-) Good luck with this and keep us updated about your journey
Thank you for your reply. I totally get what you say about energy and stuff. I'm into Law of Attraction too so I believe in those things. And you are right. I feel very ashamed of my addiction. I never did drugs, cigarettes, alcohol very rarely (once a year, twice most) and I am very pround of that but when it comes to PMO I feel so ashamed but I can't talk to nobody since I feel it is actually worse than drugs. I told in op that sometimes I feel like a drug addict. I literally can't control myself. I know it is bad but I still do it. Today is day 2. The struggle is still there but I'm staying strong. I don't wanna give in. I will totally check out the book you recommended.
Hey guys I'm on my day 5 and I don't know but I kinda feel a bit down and depressed from time to time. I'm moody. Is it normal to have mood swings when quitting PMO? I have some bad times when I think "Is this all worth it?" and stuff. Can someone tell me if they had similar experience when first trying to quit pmo.
